Unreachable

Got a phone call from my friend, Taz… last night… she was just quiet… she's just crying… i tend to be quiet, too… i asked just twice… but still no response… so i just waited for any words that will be coming from her… then after that, I got a text from her..

I'm just tired… it really affect my moods… I turn to be emotional and most of all no rights to complain because it's my obligation…

haaayyy what a life… what a routine..

Sana during that time eh ok na ako and I can talk to you the way I wanted to…

miss you for so long …. and so sorry for this kind of senti moment pa matataon.. hehehe  maybe I have to admit that I'm getting old that makes me easy get tired… 

Then just tonight… i got a text from another friend.

Sis, miss na kta. 

- Matto - 

I just stayed in my room and kept silent for a day.  A little time for myself… no phone calls, no texts… no replies… no replies to emails… and been thinking of a lot of things lately when i got another text again from a friend…

Kmusta ka na po?  Tagal na nating hindi nagkakausap.

- Alpha - 

I said to myself.. "andami namang naghahanap sa akin… antagal ko bang nawala sa sirkulasyon?"

And my phone beeped again… this time… an old message but still hit me.. 

First I was dying to finish high school and start college.

And then I was dying to finish college and start working..

And then I was dying to marry and have children.

And then I was dying for my children to grow old enough for school so I could return to work.

And then I was dying to retire.

And now, I am dying …

and suddenly, I realize…..

i forgot to LIVE.

- anonymous 

When I'm back and ready… i will come and see you guys… not now.. i'm broke and still would want to find time for myself…

miss you too!