Happy Mom

Still at deja vu mode, I asked myself of something I wished I could have altered so as to produce a different outcome in the present lifetime.

Then I thought of my mom and the conversation we had at the time I was in highschool.  She told me about her and my aunt's suitors… 

S:  Sana hindi na lang si Daddy. 

M: E di wala kayo ni Ovel ngayon… walang makukulit.

S:  Okay lang po.  Kung hindi naging kayo ni Daddy tapos wala kami, siguro iba sana… mas masaya ka ngayon at peaceful. 

<Silence filled the air> 

I saw my mom now and how she sacrificed to make our family work… no traces of memory that would reference my dad's responsibility in it… my lifetime would not be enough to repay all those sacrifices and heartaches.  If the world will award the greatest mother on earth, my mom is definitely a deserving nominee, if not the winner actually.

Given the chance to be inside the time warp machine, I would definitely go to the time where my mom meets my dad.  I would do anything not to let it happen… redirect my mom and dad's attention to someone else…

For sure, Obong and Ovel weren't be on the other end… but it cares me not… just a Happy Mom suffice my effort. 

If Denzel Washington tried it so hard to save Claire… and see her alive… mine would be saving my Mom from the perils of love and see her "new and alive and happy"… even without me.

I may never be so demonstrative of my feelings of how great my love is for my mom…. but I am sure of sacrificing my life even at the expense of losing it…. just for her happiness… I wouldn't have any second thoughts about it….  not even a wink..  

I grew up tough… for my mom and for my brother… in defense against my dad.