Love that’s true

 The problem with Sheggz… she's so afraid to admit to herself that somehow she's falling for someone.  Rather than to take risks, she'd rather hide, deny or escape from it.  She knows very well that when she's in love, her world turns upside down and she's worried that her studies (before), her plans and her career might suffer.

Don't be afraid to receive LOVE more than you can return…

be afraid that you can't give back the love

although you really can..

Love needs not to be equal or fair…

it only needs to be "TRUE".

But what if… the love is so strong that it just cannot resist hiding and escaping… and even denying?

What would Sheggz has to do?

What if the guy is just fooling around… what if he's committed?

Enjoy while he's there with you?

Tanda ko nang ito… hindi ko pa rin alam ang PAG-IBIG.. whehehehe

Kalurkay!

Si Superman

Blooming ka… In-love ka ba? - officemate

Uy mukhang masaya ka ah.  Sino ba siya? - Mader

Ate, may date ka? - Brother

"Mommy, nakita mo na nga ba si Daddy?"

Pero higit akong natawa nang minsang ang Lolo ko naman ang magtanong ng…

Ineng, nakita mo na ba si Superman? 
Wag kang mahihiyang ipakilala sa amin ha? 

Sa tuwing itatanong kasi sa akin kung kailan ako mag-aasawa, ang lagi kong isinasagot ay..

Bukas na po… gabi na…

Hindi ako mag-aasawa noh. 

Hindi po ipinapanganak ang taong yun.

At kay Lolo… Ama, hindi ko pa natatagpuan ang Superman!

Pero kahit ako natatawa sa mga nangyayari sa sarili ko lately.. Hindi ko din alam kung bakit masaya ako … hindi ko alam kung bakit parang lagi kong inaabangan ang araw ng Sabado… Hindi ko rin alam kung bakit may isang tao akong iniisip ngayon na hindi ko naman iniisip dati.   Hindi ko rin alam kung bakit parang ang gaan-gaan ng pakiramdam ko sa kabila ng napakabigat na trabaho… Hindi ko rin alam kung bakit nag-eenjoy akong kumanta ng lovesongs… Hehehehe

Hindi ko talaga alam ang sagot… siyempre alam ko kung ano ang nasa likod ng mga matatamis na ngiti at once-in-a-blue-moon na pagsulpot ng dimples…  Hindi ko pa lubos na maamin sa sarili ko siguro…

Ewan ko rin nga ba… pero sana… this time.. pagbigyan naman ako ni Lord… mabait naman ako… pasaway nga lang…

Wala lang… *blush*wink*wink*blush*

Gusto ko na nga sanang itanong …. "Am I ready to take chances with you, Superman?!"

Superman, kaya mo ba ang powers ni Timang?

Post ko lang picture ni officemate… walang malisya… hehehe

Pero ung dimples lumabas…. hihihihihi

Out!

Just recently, I read an article about Yeng Constantino… stating… the public perceived that she is a tomboy.  I cannot fully state how she answered but I am very glad how she delivered it…

"Wala naman pong problema kung sa tingin nila ay tomboy ako.  Pero sa hindi po ako talaga ganun eh."

Then, I got a June 2006 issue of Reader's Digest where it featured Carrie Underwood… my all-time favorite American Idol.  In one of the Q&A, I found this….

RD: What was your childhood like?
Underwood: I definitely was a tomboy. I climbed trees, and I'd jump hay bales and play with the cows, and Dad would take me fishing. I have two older sisters, and my parents — my mom was a teacher, and my dad had a job in a paper mill — worked hard to give us everything that we needed. We were raised in church. It was your typical all-American family.

Full article here.

The gender issue has also been questioned to Gretchen Malalad, Nene Tamayo and Panky Trinidad… and it so happened… that these three names are my favorites….

Just the same, my gender preference had long been put in question by some people who hardly know me… that put me in identity crisis since highschool.  Judged at how I dress (and not comfortable wearing long dress), uncommitted, so comfortable with being single, so easy-go-lucky, tough-looking, tigger-looking always and all other reasons that relate to being perceived as "tomboy".

And in the long run, I discovered that yearning to be with girls is a result of yearning for "Big Sisters and Lil Sisters" who I never got the chance to have…

The only girl in the family… with my only bro and two male cousins…

Hay naku!  I know myself better than anyone else.  At some point I have questioned myself, too and undergo psychological help just to assess whether or not I am a "lesbian, a bisexual, or straight".  This is due to the fact that several "lesbians and/or bisexuals" are showing interests and actually courting me.  And I always tell them, I may look so boyish at how I walk but I am straight.  I tried watching videos of two "bis" and even "lesbians" and I just couldn't take it.  I oftenly turned it off because I can't stay longer watching them… 

Whether I am a straight or not… it doesn't really matter.  What I always would want to tell my friends is to be honest with themselves, go out of the closet and live comfortably with what it takes to be a lesbian, a bi or straight.

I know some friends, even close friends, who up to now cannot reveal themselves… well oh well… you are fooling yourselves… do not be afraid of what other people might tell you or how wrongly you'll be judged… who the hell are they anyway?

Nothing wrong with being bisexuals… and being lesbians… as long as you don't harm anybody for being such…

Even at a very young age, I was more comfortable doing what lil boys do… running, racing, climbing up on trees, playing with robots and legos, computer games, boxing, cars, bike, and all  that.  It's just that I feel it's a lot more adventurous and challenging doing those things…

Though… I also like playing barbie doll and making the paper cut-outs of dresses…

If the society's perception of being a tomboy is on how courageously you can handle yourself very very well without having to depend on others and doing excellently what they think are just for boys… then I consider myself one…

Independent… Strategic… Timang…. Resourceful…

It's Me eh… Ano'ng magagawa nio?

Stay tough and bubbly