Out!

Just recently, I read an article about Yeng Constantino… stating… the public perceived that she is a tomboy.  I cannot fully state how she answered but I am very glad how she delivered it…

"Wala naman pong problema kung sa tingin nila ay tomboy ako.  Pero sa hindi po ako talaga ganun eh."

Then, I got a June 2006 issue of Reader's Digest where it featured Carrie Underwood… my all-time favorite American Idol.  In one of the Q&A, I found this….

RD: What was your childhood like?
Underwood: I definitely was a tomboy. I climbed trees, and I'd jump hay bales and play with the cows, and Dad would take me fishing. I have two older sisters, and my parents — my mom was a teacher, and my dad had a job in a paper mill — worked hard to give us everything that we needed. We were raised in church. It was your typical all-American family.

Full article here.

The gender issue has also been questioned to Gretchen Malalad, Nene Tamayo and Panky Trinidad… and it so happened… that these three names are my favorites….

Just the same, my gender preference had long been put in question by some people who hardly know me… that put me in identity crisis since highschool.  Judged at how I dress (and not comfortable wearing long dress), uncommitted, so comfortable with being single, so easy-go-lucky, tough-looking, tigger-looking always and all other reasons that relate to being perceived as "tomboy".

And in the long run, I discovered that yearning to be with girls is a result of yearning for "Big Sisters and Lil Sisters" who I never got the chance to have…

The only girl in the family… with my only bro and two male cousins…

Hay naku!  I know myself better than anyone else.  At some point I have questioned myself, too and undergo psychological help just to assess whether or not I am a "lesbian, a bisexual, or straight".  This is due to the fact that several "lesbians and/or bisexuals" are showing interests and actually courting me.  And I always tell them, I may look so boyish at how I walk but I am straight.  I tried watching videos of two "bis" and even "lesbians" and I just couldn't take it.  I oftenly turned it off because I can't stay longer watching them… 

Whether I am a straight or not… it doesn't really matter.  What I always would want to tell my friends is to be honest with themselves, go out of the closet and live comfortably with what it takes to be a lesbian, a bi or straight.

I know some friends, even close friends, who up to now cannot reveal themselves… well oh well… you are fooling yourselves… do not be afraid of what other people might tell you or how wrongly you'll be judged… who the hell are they anyway?

Nothing wrong with being bisexuals… and being lesbians… as long as you don't harm anybody for being such…

Even at a very young age, I was more comfortable doing what lil boys do… running, racing, climbing up on trees, playing with robots and legos, computer games, boxing, cars, bike, and all  that.  It's just that I feel it's a lot more adventurous and challenging doing those things…

Though… I also like playing barbie doll and making the paper cut-outs of dresses…

If the society's perception of being a tomboy is on how courageously you can handle yourself very very well without having to depend on others and doing excellently what they think are just for boys… then I consider myself one…

Independent… Strategic… Timang…. Resourceful…

It's Me eh… Ano'ng magagawa nio?

Stay tough and bubbly