The Alchemist" by Paulo Coelho

It's the possibility of having a dream come true that makes life interesting.
Everyone on earth has a treasure that awaits him.
where your heart is, there you will find your treasure.

There is only one way to learn.
It's through action.

Whoever you are, or whatever it is that you do,
when you really want something,
it's because that desire originated in the soul of the universe.
It's your mission on earth.

And when you want something,
all the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it.

(Thanks Aart for the comment… http://aart-hilal.livejournal.com/#item6244)

The Pact

I know that my heart is not the same as that of my playmates when I was six.
I played early and has no choice but to mature early with every experiences my life has given me, in family, in people around me, in the choices I make and in what I have failed to achieve.

When I gave up my desire to start a vocation inside a convent in early 2005, I dare God that I may be used in whatever way He wishes in exchange of marital bliss.  That I tell you, why, despite the pressure, I am not overly concerned whether I will end up marrying somebody or not.  Because I have made a pact in lieu of a greater purpose which up to now I am still discerning what purpose I will perfectly serve my life with… that's more I am more concerned… the bliss of my soul.

Ending life, drastic career moves, detachments and planning to go abroad always fail.  For whatever the reason is, I still don't know…

I am wondering why, despite several attempts to land a job abroad, despite the smooth processing at the beginning, somewhere along the way, something will go wrong and the plan will never pursue.

Now, I dare God once again… If I still have something left to do at my hometown, a mission that was never been accomplished yet, then point me to a job that offers the same remuneration I am expecting to achieve abroad and lead me to people, places and events that will cultivate my first longing to be fulfilled.

… what purpose is that … preventing me to go out of the country?

… what else I leave unfulfilled?

… what more can I do?

Deal

… then someone by the name "Toby" sent this to me…

"Always look for your personal legend. 
When you find it, all of the universe conspires with you."

I got curious.  I searched the net for anything related to this message and I found a link to "The Alchemist" and Paulo Coehlo.  So I decided to get a copy of it.

I've been alive for 28 years now.  Been surfing the net for almost half of my life but only this quarter did I find myself looking for the people I've come to admire in songwriting.  And I gladly did.  Been exchanging emails with the people who share the same passion… now I know some of the details in "KATHA" and several other gigs.

Then I got "The Book of Answers"…

Am I getting the answers… or is this the deal behind the "deal with God"?