Why Beatriz?

Kay Beatriz ako…

Simpleng tao pero hindi simple-minded.
Kalmadong tao
Hindi kumplikado
Hindi apektado
Pero pag sinaling mo
May prinsipyong ibabato sa yo

Makikilala mo ang taong matalino
Sa pagsasalita at pagkilos
Ang disenteng pakikiharap sa tao
Ang makalingang pagtugon sa mga bagay na kahit hindi ibinigay ay inaako

Responsableng tao
Ang bawat hakbang ay sadyang pinagiisipan

Hindi ako naniniwala sa walang “markadong” iniwan ang personality na ito ni Beatriz

Nakita ko ang mataas na pagpapahalaga sa salitang “PAMILYA”
Obligasyon at kapa sa magulang

Ito at ang maganda mong hangaring bigyan ng magandang buhay ang pamilya mo
Sa matalino, maayos, makatao at may dignidad na pamamaraan at pagharap sa buhay…

Enough for me to say…. “Doon ako sa pagkataong ipagmamalaki ko.”

ANG BOTO KO… GINAMIT KO NG AYOS… OTHERWISE…

Masasabihan ako ni Maricris ng “YOU DIDN’T THAT”.

Voluntary Exit from Kapamilya

Sa halos ilang pagkakataon na sinubaybayan ko ang Pinoy Big Brother mula sa initial airing neto ng Season 1, Celebrity Edition, Teen Edition at ngayon nga ay ang Season 2, ito na marahil ang pinaka-maduming reality show na napanood ko.

Ginamit ng husto ang katauhan ng hindi kaiga-igayang pagkatao ng isang housemate para sa ratings ng show.  Bumalik pa at hinangad makasama sa Big Four… Hello?  Ginagawa ninyo bang tanga ang mga nanonood sa inyo?

Sumadsad ang respeto ko sa network na ito na halos 28 years kong sinubaybayan.

Ganito na ba talaga ang takbo ng panahon?

Prinsipyo, Dignidad at Kaluluwa… ibebenta at ipagpapalit sa pansumandaling kasikatan?

Eto ba ang klase ng “In the Service of the Filipino…” 

Panloloko, pagmamanipula, at pagdistort ng kaisipan….

Ganito ba ang values na dapat ipinapairal sa samahang magkakapamilya…

Minsan ka nang nagtagumpay na iangat sa mas kahanga-hangang antas ang pagka-Filipino at mismong ikaw ang magbubura ng lahat ng iyon sa isipan naming lahat…

Ngayon saang punto ko hahanapin muli ang respeto at paghanga?

Disconnect

In one of my casual conversations with somebody, I shared this.

I am a friend of “no one”.

If that “no one” is fake.

I’ve given so much of "me"

now's the time to give a taste of

how it takes to have “me” all gone.

I am giving a clear distinction on

the person I am dealing with …

is he/she just a drinking buddy.

a gimmick partner…

and all other categories that demands

no giving of “full trust and love”…

just a casual “hi and hello and woohooo!”

for I am true to you…

that what I am giving is just half-hearted…

tropa… barkada… kaibigan…

soon they will find themselves belonging to these categories…

some would just be forgotten…

some would still be kept..

some are still in the edge of whether or not to keep or just forget..

the test of who’s who is activated…

claiming that you’re my friend?

Then prove it!

Tired of false friends…

Time to disconnect

How the CHEATING happened according to an ABS insider

This is how the fraud happened!!!

Posted by two14:

"I have worked for abs-cbn for almost 4 years now, since i finished my MA on mass com - broadcast communication in 2003. as part of production on news and current affairs, my work has been mostly rewarding, with good benefits despite the low base pay (i’m including this part so you would understand why i accepted the offer to be transferred to conceptualization of some reality shows particularly the current one, PBB.) because of the sensitivity of my status (i am still working there) i cannot divulge my name, gender and current position in ABS CBN. still, i would like to inform those who are interested (who, most probably, are now wondering why Wendy Valdez is still inside the house and not evicted yet, as most must have assumed.)

When i was asked if i wanted to be part of the conceptualization of the current and upcoming reality shows that ABS CBN would be showing (with higher compensation, obviously), i accepted the offer. how bad can it get, i said, since most of these shows run on public voting and my job would mostly include thinking of the “challenges” that Kuya instructs the housemates to do.

Apparently, conceptualization incorporates more than that. as i have known after the pre-screening of the auditioners, as early as the application process, we have to note who we think will “attract the public most” and who we think will “make the ratings go off the roof.” after the initial screening, we had to choose the top 100 of the batch, and even though some did not “theoretically pass” the audition (some weren’t able to complete the documents needed), since they have mass appeal, they made it to the first cut, and some were even included in the finalists that entered the BB house.

As you all know, the eviction process is supposed to be based on the votes that the “nominated housemates” - the housemate with the lowest vote will be evicted. i dont know about the previous editions of the PBB (since i only worked under this series this season), but what surprised us the most was when we were informed that the voting only affects the decision minimally - that the voting actually shows who the public wants to see again the following day - but that was it. the truth is, there are so-called “talent auditors.” these people are the ones who really put the big decision as to who will be evicted, and who will stay. of course, this never became obvious since i cannot deny the fact that we receive millions of votes during eviction night. that is, until wendy was evicted, and then later returned to join the housemates who are legitimately still in the contest. and the reason is this: the wendy-bruce loveteam is working. have you ever noticed why most of the episodes are focused on the wendy-bruce loveteam? it is because ratings are really high, meaning that people want to see how their relationship develops.

I have never received this much question about my work before. my friends want to know how someone who was already evicted be suddenly returned to the house. actually, that is one of the “twists” that are really planned to be included in the show. but there are actually 3 evicted housemates that were vying to be returned to the house, and wendy was one of them. we were asked who we think should be the one to return to the house, and zeke won. but after discussing that the wendy-bruce love team was too interesting to abruptly end, it was wendy who got the spot. aside from that, we were later informed by one of the production managers who was disappointed with the decision, wendy was “direk dyogi’s pet.”

I told this story to some of my friends, and they were surprised to know the truth, particularly because some of them were voting for their favorite contestant. i told them only one thing - that they are just wasting their money in voting. as i have personally seen, the path of the contest is already drawn, and the voting only affects the decision minimally, as i have said. this only tells us who the public wants to see again inside the house. the eviction of nel tonight is the classic example. nel got the 2nd lowest number of votes, wendy got the lowest. but the administrators think that perhaps the wendy-bruce loveteam is still up, so we had to give it one last shot. if the ratings go down, or if on tuesday (the next eviction night), wendy still gets the lowest vote, she’s out of the contest.

I did not want to reveal all of these, partly because of my loyalty to the company that has given me so much over the years, but i personally think that it is unfair to make one suffer for another’s gain. since i have done background checks on the housemates, i know for a fact that nel isn’t very well-off, and should have been given his chance fairly. i feel bad to know that i am included in a ploy to confuse and even fool people into believing that they control the outcome of the show. that is why i went ahead and did this post. i wanted people to know how PBB works.

If you really want to let the network know how disappointed you are with the outcome, make the ratings go down at least until tuesday. and do not waste your money in voting, or if you really want to and have the means to do so, vote for who you really think should be included in the big 4 - this way, hopefully, wendy will be out on tuesday for good."

–ABS CBN Employee / PBB Conceptualizer

Taken from the Pinoy Big Brother Forums:

http://forums.abs-cbn.com/thread/2404810.aspx

Pooh serenades

As I browse the net for my favorite pooh bear songs… I landed on "Forever and Ever" by Pooh and Christopher Robin, "Wherever You Are" by Pooh and "Return to Pooh Corner" by Kenny Loggins… Pooh's lullabye that bring me to a very good night sleep.

FOREVER AND EVER

Pooh, there's something I have to tell you
Is it something, nice?
Not, exactly
Then it can wait
It can, for how long?
Forever and ever

Forever and ever
Is a very long time Pooh
Forever isn't long at all
When I'm with you

I wanna call your name, forever
And you will always answer, forever
And both of us will be
Forever you and me
Forever and ever

I wanna stay like this, forever
If only I could promise, forever
Then we could just be we
Forever you and me
Forever and ever

Forever and ever
Is a very long time Pooh
Forever isn't long at all, Christopher
When I'm with you

I wanna be with you, forever
I want you right here beside me, forever
One thing you should know
No matter where I go
We'll always be together
Forever and ever

 

WHEREVER YOU ARE

Come out moon
Come out wishing star
Come out, come out
Wherever you are

I'm out here in the dark
All alone and wide awake
Come and find me
I'm empty and I'm cold
And my heart's about to break
Come and find me
I need you to come here and find me
'Cos without you I'm totally lost
I've hung a wish on every star
It hasn't done much good so far
I can only dream of you
Wherever you are

I'll hear you laugh
I'll see you smile
I'll be with you
Just for a while

But when the morning comes
And the sun begins to rise
I will lose you
Because it's just a dream
When I open up my eyes
I will lose you
I used to believe in forever
But forever's too good to be true
I've hung a wish on every star
It hasn't done much good so far
I don't know what else to do
Except to try to dream of you
And wonder if you are dreaming too
Wherever you are

Wherever you are

 

 

RETURN TO POOH CORNER

Christopher Robin and I walked along
Under branches lit up by the moon
Posing our questions to Owl and Eeyore
As our days disappeared all too soon
But I've wandered much further today than I should
And I can't seem to find my way back to the Wood

So help me if you can
I've got to get back
To the House at Pooh Corner by one

You'd be surprised
There's so much to be done
Count all the bees in the hive
Chase all the clouds from the sky
Back to the days of Christopher Robin and Pooh

Winnie the Pooh doesn't know what to do
Got a honey jar stuck on his nose
He came to me asking help and advice
And from here no one knows where he goes
So I sent him to ask of the Owl if he's there
How to loosen a jar from the nose of a bear

[these lyrics are found on http://www.songlyrics.com]
It's hard to explain how a few precious things
Seem to follow throughout all our lives
After all's said and done I was watching my son
Sleeping there with my bear by his side
So I tucked him in, I kissed him and as I was going
I swear that the old bear whispered "Boy welcome home"

Believe me if you can
I've finally come back
To the House at Pooh Corner by one
What do you know
There's so much to be done
Count all the bees in the hive
Chase all the clouds from the sky
Back to the days of Christopher Robin
Back to the ways of Christopher Robin
Back to the days of Pooh

 

Catch Me, I’m Falling

By Toni Gonzaga
Themesong in "Which Star Are You From?"

I don’t know why but when I look in your eyes
I feel something that seems so right
You’ve got yours I’ve got mine
I think I’m loosing my mind
Coz I shouldn’t feel this way
Catch me I’m falling for you
And I don’t know what to do

How can something so wrong?
Feel so right all along
Catch me I’m falling for you

How can time be so wrong
For love to come along?
Catch me I’m falling you

How can love let it go
When it has no place to go
And I can’t go along pretending
That love isn’t here to stay
Catch me I’m falling

If I could just walk away
Without you floating today
I would die just thinking of you
I know we can’t therefore be more friends you and me
But why do I feel this way

Catch me I’m falling for you
And I don’t know what to do

How can something so wrong?
Feel so right all along
Catch me I’m falling for you

How can time be so wrong
For love to come along?
Catch me I’m falling you

Maybe someday I’ll see why love did this to me
Coz I can’t go along pretending
That love isn’t here to stay
Catch me I’m falling for you
Catch me I’m Falling for you

And it’s wrong for me to feel this way
Coz I don’t know what to do without you
I’m falling for you
Catch me I’m falling for you

How can something so wrong?
Feel so right all along
Catch me I’m falling for you

Let the Joy Rise

Just this morning, my lola was visited by my co-brother in Singles for Christ, who happened to be my neighbor in Cavite.  He brought a "papaya" for my Ina Minting…  Nino is still very active in serving SFC-Amadeo and Tagaytay…

I cannot hide the fact that my days in Singles for Christ are truly awesome… maybe a large part of who I am now is attributed to the many years I am in Singles… I will forever be grateful of that moment…

What are the things I cannot forget about my being part of it?   I get to dance all the way with the MaskiPap moves… and sweating all out while roaming around and going up and down of the stage… when we're out to show the maximum of level of fellowship with the brothers and sisters and praising God… you'll see even the most shy person on earth dancing… kahit nga ako! hahahaha

Even the corniest moves and the worst voice … I heard it all here… but no one cares… no one dares to comment… cause in God's eyes… the most sincere form of worshipping is that in which you give your whole heart even at the expense of looking "insane" in front of so many people…

I miss Singles for Christ sooo much… hoping I'll get to be acquainted with the same organization when I get to visit Singapore….

The Letting go of Joy Rise continues…….  hear it here…

The Power of Dreams

I used to say this …

"Sheggz… the name soon to be a legend…" 

As to why I said that.. I dunno.  It's just that I feel something strange… hehehe 

The moment I read about "The Personal Legend" I become sooo curious about it…

According to Paulo Coehlo, "It's what you have always wanted to accomplish.  Everyone, when they are young, knows what their Personal Legend is."

I was at the bus when I read this… In a moment of silence, I reckon which among the very first lists of my dreams, is the one that truly hones me to be "Tomorrow's Legend"… hehehe

Hmm… a pianist… a nun… or an athlete… these are arranged in the order of conception.

Paulo Coehlo continues….

"at that point in their lives, everything is clear and everything is possible.  They are not afraid to dream, and to yearn for everything they would like to see happen to them in their lives.  But, as time passes, a mysterious force begins to convince them that it will be impossible for them to realize their Personal Legend…  It's a force that appears to be negative, but actually shows you how to realize your Personal Legend.  It prepares your spirit and your will, because there is one great truth on this planet: whoever you are, or whater it is that you do, when you really want something, it's because that desire originated in the soul of the universe.  It's your mission on earth.  And, when you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it."

I read it more than once… and answer this… puts me constantly to one particular passion….

Hope the constellation of stars conspire to help me achieve it…. the personal dream…

Likes and Dislikes

Discovery of the common likes and dislikes among friends is one of the most exciting moments for me… 

"Ayyy gusto mo din yan?!?  Oo.. ako din?!?" 

Too glad that such discovery happened last June 11 with my friend Dondon.  We never had any hassle about looking for some place and what food to eat… He told me that I will love the place because of it's very "quiet" ambiance…. He asked me if I love chocolates… and I was too thankful that he brought met to "Cupcakes by Sonja" at Serendra.  I've long been searching for this Cupcakes.. hmmmm!

Just before we eat, I laughed when I saw his camera and both of us started to pose… We love taking photos… we love shrimps, we love cupcakes…

yahooooooo!

Thanks and salute!!!!  We'll go back to Animalandia!

Batang Liwayway

Hallooooo!  Forgot to share this… maybe a few weeks had passed… there was one morning that I intend to go half-day at work just to watch "Komiks"…. where it featured "Agua Bendita"…. not that I'm a fan of actors and actresses who played the role… but am actually a Batang Liwayway … hehehe

Agua Bendita is one of my favorite stories in Liwayway… Liwayway magazine has been my favorite reading material when I was young.  It is delivered to our home once in a while.  And I used to sit beside my Lolo and Lola while reading that. 

And I was just sooooo happy that I get to watch it…. Jologs!!