The Way We Were

My mind has just recently been thinking of strangers who eventually became my friends.
And these so-called friends have been causing me "stressful moods" that had later on turned
into tantrums-causing-migraine, making me walk into numerous eggshells.. making me go out of
their world.

I actually went out… and turned a look back… just a far-away look… been a stranger for quite sometime… let them do the way they do things… and I had my head up to do the things I usually do… uncomplicated.. living free…

Now I've been thinking whether i've gone too far… and going back has totally been out of my mind.. will there be something good at going back or will it be better to continue paving the way out…

A way back is a struggle to accept everyone's shortcomings and moodswings… the same reasons that fed me up… and pull that string apart.

A way back is as if a confirmation that … "once you step back… you have to be doubly or triply hard-skinned"..

I intend not to compromise… not to go back for now… a lil room for silence, for maturity and respect…

The friendship has gotten too personal… so attached… but has never been strong and dependable…

Can this be the end… an ending that will never go unnoticed by others… just us…

Just let me be free…. and happy with the way I do things… it's uneasy to be walking and smiling but in my heart i know, I am uncomfortable.

I just hope they, too, will understand… for friendship doesn't always have to mean…. being up-close and personal … and my prayers are always with you guys, wherever I go… in the nearness of you….

Will I be happy with my decisions?

Or will it be okay to just leave without having to say I'm leaving… just leave…

Is that the way of a friend?!? Hmmm…..

Churva

Let me end the week with some points to ponder… I am deeply grateful to JP for sending this.. hehehe

This is interesting.  CHURVA has its etymology from the Greek word "CHEORVAMUS" meaning "for lack of the right word to say or in place of something you want to express but you cannot verbalize."

- aba'y akalain mo!!

Happy Weekend, mga Churvers!!!

what if we fall in love…..

I am not a Yeng Constantino fanatic… but I do love hearing the songs she has written… This one's I cannot just ignore…. In fact, I was so hesitant to know the title of this and too glad that I heard it played on the PC of a stranger.. Can't help but ask the girl beside me and too fortunate enough that she knows it very well…

So simple… yet so relaxing to hear…. Some says…. when you're in love… songs as simple as this… can mean something different to you… Is this a sign?!  

Makes me think of someone… of something…. of the howdy and the how's dat…. of everything…. of the future… of something beyond the years… and the stars… of the moon elsewhere…. yiheeee!!!  <think! think! think!>

… have I asked myself of…. "what if we fall in love?"… or have I actually prepared a more convincing answers to the matters of the heart?  Hmmm…

Ask the moon and the stars…. for if it happens…. this will gonna be another… "Got to Believe in Magic!"

by Yeng Constantino

There will be no ordinary days for you
‘Cause there is someone that cares like I do
You will have no reason to be sad anymore
I am always ready with a smile
With just one glimpse of you

[Refrain]
You don’t have to search no more
‘Cause I am someone who will love you for sure

[Chorus]
So if we fall in love maybe we’ll sing this song as one
If we fall in love we can write a better song than this
If we fall in love we will have that melody in our head
If we fall in love anywhere with you would be a better place

You can watch that movie in a different light
I will be right there beside you hugging you oh so tight (oh so tight)
How can love feels so cold and empty again
And I will keep on holding on and won’t let go (and won’t let go)

[repeat Refrain and Chorus]

Feel so good when you’re around
One smile from you (one smile from you) and I just feel so bright

[repeat Chorus]

Interview

Just had a rounds of interview - exam - interview here and there in several companies in Manila, Makati, and QC.  Just this morning, I had to attend to an interview in one of the largest recruitment firm in Makati.  I am excited to be interviewed as always… as usual… I came late… had a wacky and interesting interview that has become my interview with the interviewer hahahaha

That has always been the case… I laughed when the interviewer said… "I like the way you talk.  Very natural!" <sabay apir>

I was given a written exam and had a innie-minnie-miny-moo on the choices that points to numerical and problem solving questions!  I hate that questions!  Came a 20-item spelling quiz that tested my being a "Spelling Wiz" before… hehehehe it still works!  I never missed anything on the list…

Came the typing exam… Wooohooooo!!!! Jaraaann!!! Whew!  Sisiw!

But I never closed the deal yet… for I have to weigh other options… and other possibilities… 

Thanks to my friends who make have been wishing that I'll be hired in the same building as theirs…

Gotta go!!!