The Way We Were

My mind has just recently been thinking of strangers who eventually became my friends.
And these so-called friends have been causing me "stressful moods" that had later on turned
into tantrums-causing-migraine, making me walk into numerous eggshells.. making me go out of
their world.

I actually went out… and turned a look back… just a far-away look… been a stranger for quite sometime… let them do the way they do things… and I had my head up to do the things I usually do… uncomplicated.. living free…

Now I've been thinking whether i've gone too far… and going back has totally been out of my mind.. will there be something good at going back or will it be better to continue paving the way out…

A way back is a struggle to accept everyone's shortcomings and moodswings… the same reasons that fed me up… and pull that string apart.

A way back is as if a confirmation that … "once you step back… you have to be doubly or triply hard-skinned"..

I intend not to compromise… not to go back for now… a lil room for silence, for maturity and respect…

The friendship has gotten too personal… so attached… but has never been strong and dependable…

Can this be the end… an ending that will never go unnoticed by others… just us…

Just let me be free…. and happy with the way I do things… it's uneasy to be walking and smiling but in my heart i know, I am uncomfortable.

I just hope they, too, will understand… for friendship doesn't always have to mean…. being up-close and personal … and my prayers are always with you guys, wherever I go… in the nearness of you….

Will I be happy with my decisions?

Or will it be okay to just leave without having to say I'm leaving… just leave…

Is that the way of a friend?!? Hmmm…..