The Rare Chance

I've been writing songs at the moment.  And as usual, it has always been a struggle to write a love song hehehe

But not after I talked to a special friend… or shall I say… the special man in mine… hearing his words made me convinced that loving is not at all satisfying one's self.  It's gratifying on my part to hear the words I long been wanting to hear from the person himself but just the same… the feeling of gratification is different from loving.

"Take a Chance on Me…  This might be the right time for us", he said.

I've been looking straight into his eyes, and that's where I got the lyrics… He may be confused as to why I am smiling and had misinterpreted it into something favorable to him… he was surprised to hear my answer..

Had I known it, I could have stayed, but now, I can no longer accept it.  I have big dreams ahead of me that I wouldn't want to suffer and take into sacrifice… in exchange of you.

I finished eating my pasta and continue joking as if nothing serious had happened… I was joking while his tears are beginning to fill his cheeks….

Can we no longer compromise?  Can we not do something about it?

I said… "None that I could think of except being civil friends…"

The whole time talking is the turning point of making good music in my heart… and gotcha… now I have "Had I Known!"

Thanks a lot for making me wrote this…

The Plans

Majority of my friends who are in the same age as I am are texting me and keeping me informed of what's happening in their lives now and their upcoming plans… mostly are familial concerns, a few on lovelife and career, and mostly on getting married and having babies…

While reading each of their messages, I've been telling myself, "Bakit naman sa akin pa nagconfide… ano namang kinalaman ko sa pagtitimpla ng gatas at pagpapamilya…. hehehe worst… eh ung magpakasal…"

Then, one thing caught my attention… "Ikaw ninang, naisipan mo na bang magplano para naman sa sarili mo?"

Up to this moment, I haven't got any reply to her.  Not that I don't have any concrete plans at all, but it adds more pressure on my part to have it shared and no one will ever be granted.  Been through with my promised obligations, and now I'm happy making plans for myself… and in fact, I am too excited just how life is turning good for me in some aspects of it.  Now's the only time that I become more serious at making decisions and on the consequences that it might caused me and my loved-ones… Whoah!  Is this a sure sign of maturity?!?

I am just starting to live my life the way I wanted it to be…. and that's what it makes exciting and worth living.

For the winning strategy hasn't ended yet…. and there's no point in giving it up without even trying….

As for my Besku….. AJAH!

Bye Bye Lea ;-)

Another good friend is leaving for Japan by tomorrow for a 2-year training in Fujitsu.  It saddens me though to think that I'll be missing seeing Lea in Ortigas, my second hideout.

But on a lighter side, it makes me feel so excited to see just how she gets tougher from the time she started unknowing how ProIV programming will lead her from the moment I left them in Laguna.  I could still remember just how I firmly told them… "Don't leave here… Something better will happen when I leave…."  And it just did!  A sacrifice lamb for a moment for a victory against the monster… hehehe

I'll be seeing Lea later at night for last-minute tete-a-tete and bonding moment…

Hope to see you sometime next year… Bon Voyage, Imang Lea! Hahahaha

Keep them sane in your insanity!  Have a picture of Winnie the Pooh in Disney ha?!  My regards to Marlon, Yvonne and Ella Enchanted…. hehehe

Ingat!

Baby Girl ;-)

Last week, I and Matto, had a serious briefing on pregnany cycle.  And on how baby weight got doubled on the third week… Well, in short, it has been rounds of baby talks!

Had a closer look on the many pink items already bought for her baby girl.  She wasn't sooo excited though…. 4 fully-packed drawers… plus several bags to be brought at the hospital.

Just last night, she texted me that "Her baby <i wouldn't publish the name yet> is now 5.6lbs. Given a few weeks pa, if I give birth then, she'll be a 6 pounder baby according to the OB.  I'm on week 37 na… I can give birth anytime na.."

Oh my God… this is the most I hate scene ever.  Grrr!!! I told her to remind Arnold, her husband, to keep me posted only after she already gave birth so I could immediately pay visit and look after the baby girl.  

Let's just keep praying for her safe delivery and a bouncing baby girl… surely, Kuya Rocko and Kuya Dupree are so excited too to see their baby sister…. na tao!

Hahahaha

Did I marry the right person?

During one of our seminars, a woman asked a common question. She said, "How do I know if I married the right person?"
I noticed that there was a large man sitting next to her so I said, "It depends. Is that your husband?"
In all seriousness, she answered "How do you know?"
Let me answer this question because the chances are good that it’s weighing on your mind.
Here’s the answer.

EVERY relationship has a cycle. In the beginning, you fell in love with your spouse. You anticipated their call, wanted their touch, and liked their idiosyncrasies.

Falling in love with your spouse wasn’t hard. In fact, it was a completely natural and spontaneous experience. You didn’t have to DO anything. That’s why it’s called "falling" in love… because it’s happening TO YOU.

People in love sometimes say, "I was swept off my feet." Think about the imagery of that __expression. It implies that you were just standing there; doing nothing, and then something came along and happened TO YOU.

Falling in love is easy. It’s a passive and spontaneous experience.

But after a few years of marriage, the euphoria of love fades. It’s the natural cycle of EVERY relationship. Slowly but surely, phone calls become a bother (if they come at all), touch is not always welcome (when it happens), and your spouse’s idiosyncrasies, instead of being cute, drive you nuts.

The symptoms of this stage vary with every relationship, but if you think about your marriage, you will notice a dramatic difference between the initial stage when you were in love and a much duller or even angry subsequent
stage.

At this point, you and/or your spouse might start asking, "Did I marry the right person?" And as you and your spouse reflect on the euphoria of the love you once had, you may begin to desire that experience with someone else. This is when marriages breakdown. People blame their spouse for their unhappiness and look outside their marriage for fulfillment.

Extramarital fulfillment comes in all shapes and sizes. Infidelity is the most obvious. But sometimes people turn to work, church, a ho bby, a friendship, excessive TV, or abusive substances.

But the answer to this dilemma does NOT lie outside your marriage. It lies within it.

I’m not saying that you couldn’t fall in love with someone else. You could. And TEMPORARILY you’d feel better. But you’d be in the same situation a few years
later. Because (listen carefully to this):

THE KEY TO SUCCEEDING IN MARRIAGE IS NOT FINDING THE RIGHT PERSON; IT’S LEARNING TO LOVE THE PERSON YOU FOUND.

SUSTAINING love is not a passive or spontaneous experience. It’ll NEVER just happen to you. You can’t "find" LASTING love. You have to "make" it day in and
day out. That’s why we have the __expression "the labor of love." Because it takes time, effort, and energy. And most importantly, it takes WISDOM. You have to know WHAT TO DO to make your marriage work.

Make no mistake about it. Love is NOT a mystery. There are specific things you can do (with or without your spouse) to succeed with your marriage.

Just as there are physical laws of the universe (such as gravity), there are also laws for relationships. Just as the right diet and exercise program makes you physically stronger, certain habits in your relationship WILL make your marriage stronger. It’s a direct cause and effect. If you know and apply the laws, the results are predictable. .. you can "make" love.

Love in marriage is indeed a "decision".. . not just a feeling.

Singles may ponder on this too…. for future reference! =)

"When God increases our blessings, it is not meant to be our reward, it’s a call to do greater things as worthy tenants of His vineyard"… Mark 12:1-12

Unexpected

Isn't it amazing when things happen unexpectedly? 
Like when love finds you when it's the last thing on your mind..

Indeed, there are moments in our life we can't seem to take control of …
and more often than not, there's greater satisfaction in finding happiness
at the least expected places..