The Prayer

Most people never run far enough on their first wind to find out if they've got a second. Give your dreams all you've got and you'll be amazed at the energy that comes out of you. - William James. 

Yesterday, while busy capturing videos of Gretchen Malalad at the Buzz, I got a text message from Big Daddy.  When I heard my cell beeped.  I just opened it, but wasn't able to read it at once because I was holding my camera and at the same time holding my cell, too.

After watching, I went back scrolling the messages I have opened and was surprised to see one that has made me teary eyed…  Somebody loved my songs…

I had all the messages in my inbox moved to another folder leaving that message the only message remaining.  I remembered the night before I finally gave that songs to them.  I was crying all out.  I feel like I'm pushed to my limits and no creative nerves were pulling me off to make one song that would make sense after all… I ran to my room, faced the altar, while I was taking an Indian sit at my bed.  There I cried a lot.   

I had the most heart-warming prayer, sharing and surrender to my God.  That I stayed realizing a purpose that still unknown to me and yet I wasn't seeing anything good at what I'm doing.  I am praying for a gift of miracle and wisdom that somehow God would grant me what I need.

Right before lunch the following morning, I went back to my room, had my keyboard turned on and began dancing to the tunes I had in mind.  The second song I wrote in less than 15 minutes… so spontaneous…

I would just like to take a space out in my blog to thank those who have made me realize… I'm out for something… Had it not for them, I would have totally left Music in my life and turned the other way out…

It's too overwhelming… and it really made me happy…  It wasn't after the deadline for that project, but I'm more than pressured on whether or not I still have the capability to write songs… it's not a battle over anything else… but a battle with myself…

Glad that I gave the best fight of my life, as of the moment… Thanks a lot! You guys, knew who you are… Big Daddy, Big Mommy and Big Brains!