The Voice Within…

I've been thinking lately whether or not I will take heed to the call of songwriting.  I've been trying to remember what I have promised in my prayers in exchange of this very good break.  Apparently, God is so good that He brought me there.  

Last night…. i heard this statement… "Makinig ka sa Voice.  Iyon ang magsasabi sa yo kung saan ka.  Kung saan ka magaling… doon ka mapupunta.  Wag kang lalaban kung saan ka mahina, dun dapat sa kung saan magaling ka… dahil alam mong gagawin mo ang lahat para lumaban."  

So I was asking myself then… have i really enjoyed my professional career in IT?  If yes, why do I jump in and out of good companies, why do my interest and satisfaction level seemed to be so shallow… bottomline is… why am i not happy with the accomplishments arising from work?

If not, then what's next to explore?

So I go back to my known option… music.  If I would really want to pursue a career in this area, I have to be serious… at this very moment… 

My memory turned back to the very first time I saw my full name at the back of an album… everytime I remember it… can't help but to laugh so hard….

This was what's running inside…. "Patay ka, Sheggz… Hala ka… Eto na yun.. Ikaw yan eh… Kaya mo ba?! Patay ka!"  

I missed going to the Songwriter's Afternoon in QC, so I opted to text the organizer.  Suddenly, I got a text requesting for unpublished love song… Some friends, too, are asking me to write more…

The feeling's yet to sink in.  And I was asking myself… can I really do it?  When everyone's pushing me to do this… I am more bothered hearing what my heart really says about it…. 

I haven't started it yet.  And what makes me uneasy is that I'm keeping the chances waiting while others are dying to get the same chance I'm having….

What I am sure of…. I'm hearing this…. "Do what you love… and you'll love doing it."

Un na ba un?