Seasons of Love

I may be the worst keyboard player but it's still one thing that I love doing and the only thing the world remembers I do well.  I learned it when I was still 5 and stopped in the middle in formal schooling.  But everyone in the family adores me everytime I got to play with my old Casiotone keyboard.  

Almost all of those who knows me by the name… know that I play keyboard… by ear…  I envy those who can play very well and could easily coordinate the left hand with the right hand playing.

And just this moment… I am so excited to go back to what I love doing… Just last weekend, I told my lola, I'll be my friends' pianist on their wedding day.  She told me… "Bat ayaw mong ituloy ang pag-aaral ng piano?"

And I replied, "Iyon nga po ang gusto kong mangyari… Seseryosohin ko na to.. Para magandang may raket na ulit ako. Iyon bang you're getting paid for something you just enjoy doing… Gusto kong may papalit na agad kina Mam Fely, Ate Lucy, Ate Yeye at Ate Erly pag tumanda na sila at di na kayang tumugtog sa simbahan.  Iyon talaga ang pangarap ko… ang tumugtog sa simbahan sa Amadeo…  Iyon ang debosyon ko eh." 

I was thinking… my whole family may not have allowed to pursue a degree in Conservatory of Music but they have never stopped me from doing what I do… Honga noh?!  Eh bat ako tumigil? Hahaha

I am really excited… I'd get to play for my family, our neighbors, my friends and my friends' friends… Hmm… actually, I never dreamt of becoming rich and famous hehehe… I would just like to grow old playing… in hotels, in bars, in weddings, anywhere! 

For pianists, the more you get older… the more you get paid higher… in various occasions di ba?  Hehehehe

Bakit nga ba ngayon lang ako nagising… hihihihi 

Hope to really play "Seasons of Love" for everyone…. Ting Ting Ting!

This is just one thing my heart knows too well….  

Bilin ni Shaider

Muntik nang sa office kami lahat mgspend ng Todos Los Santos hehehe.

Ilang oras bago ideclare ang half-day sa aming opisina, napansin namin na down ang aming server… so hintay-hintay, laro-laro ng konti, kain-kain, surf-surf sa internet..  Walang iniindang panganib na darating.

Nang biglang may nagsabing… "hindi marecover ung files sa server!"

Oh my goodness!  Biglang nanuyo ang lalamunan ko at muntik mag-freeze ang utak ko.  My goodness! Wala kaming local backup nang mga documents na deliverables pa naman by next week!  Hindi biro ang amount of penalty dahil dito.

May konti man kaming backup pero hindi sapat para sa mas mahahalagang files…

Hindi ako halos umaalis ng upuan ko… Naiwan na nga ako sa conference room habang ang iba ay lumabas ng kwarto para huminga-hinga… Ewan ko kung anong milagro ang dumating at ng bigla kong buksan ang file server…. Gotcha!  Bigla kong nakita ung mga folders!  Bulaga!!!

Agad-agad kong binackup ang mga un!!! Inisip ko agad na may instructions sa akin si Shaider… na "Sheggz.. Backup Activated ngayon din!" hahaha

Haay!  Thanks God!!!

One More Chance

Shhh… I must confess that I'm super hooked to romantic movies… hehehe super!  One Filipino movie that I would want to see is One More Chance which starred John Lloyd Cruz, Bea Alonzo, Maja Salvador and yes… Beatriz Saw!  Thanks to Bigfoot, I was informed of the videolink of One More Chance's full trailer. 

Thanks for informing me about the pamatay-lines of the movie….

When love ends… how long should you hold on?

How soon should you let go?

How do you move on?

for anyone who has ever loved and lost… 

Eto ang panalo! 

John Lloyd [to Bea Alonzo] :  She loved me at my worst. You had me at my best. And you chose to break my heart.

See Your Worth

In life, you will realize that the people you meet have a purpose.  Some were put there to test you, some would use you, some would teach you, and some would bring out the better if not the best in you.

Some may even cause you pain and heartache but one must learn to move on.  So let go of the people who can't treat you right, and hold on to those who love you back and see your worth.

This is it!

Character

Ability may get you to the top, but it takes character to keep you there. - John Wooden

 

Unqualified

If you are not sure when you stand in someone's life, it's best to leave things behind so that if they drop you off, it will be easier to forget them.  Don't waste time waiting for nothing.  When efforts are not recognized, it's best to just give things up.  You've done your part, let them do theirs.

Out of countless circumstances, I've learned to adhere to this for almost a year now.  And it's helping me overcome those I presume are so hard to deal with situations and people.  Time is so precious to be wasted to undeserving opportunities and unqualified persons.  If they're not worthy of your time and effort… then don't waste it for them… Make sure that you're not affected negatively by it.

Live a carefree life…

Love Songs

Saturday morning, I saw a text message coming from my good friend, Emma Liza.

Hi! Gud morning May hihingin sana akong malaking favor sa yo.  Ikakasal na me eh kailangan ko ng mag-oorgan, may singer na pwede ka ba? Sa December 1 yun.  Ang mga kakantahin lang naman eh The Gift, Ikaw, Ngayon at Kailanman, We've Only Just Begun, Through the Years, All my Life and Forever more.  Pwede ba?

Excited na ko kasi sa kasal ko pa pala ikaw makakasama ulit   

Emz is my closest friend in college. It took several minutes before I replied. All the while I thought, she was asking me to sing.. hahahaha Surely, I can't say no to her cause this has long been promised.  That whenever she gets married, I'll be there to play for her… I seldom do that.. only to close close friends

Hope I can play it well for the last "single" friend among my list of friends in college…

If that's the case…. I was left.. single out!  hahahaha 

Bday Gifts

Bago kami lumuwas ulit ng Manila kanina, ewan ko ba kung bakit ang naging mainit na topic ng aking pamilya eh kung paano ice-celebrate ang natatanging "29th" birthday ko hahaha.  Marahil combined celebration na rin ito, dahil kaming lahat ng mga apo ay pawang nakagraduate na… ang iba'y may pamilya na… at ang iba'y naghahanap ng magiging pamilya… at ako ay nilipasan na sa paghahanap hahaha

Nandiyang tumawag pa ang Uncle ko sa States para sabihing… ang gift daw niya sa akin ay Baril na kwarenta'y singko.  Samantalang ang kapatid ko naman… "Ate, alam ko na ireregalo ko sa yo… TUNGKOD! Alalay sa pagtanda!" Hahaha

Marahil suko na silang lahat sa akin dahil hindi ako napipikon sa kahit anong pang-aalaska nila.  Sabi pa nga ni Lolo.. "Ung ibang mga dalaga… nagcecelebrate kapag ika-25th birthday na wala pang asawa… samantalang ikaw… icecelebrate namin ang huling taon na line of 2 ka pa.."

Hahaha

Ito na ang pinakahihintay kong sandali sa taong ito… ang magkakasama kaming lahat sa isang simpleng salu-salo… Ang taon na ito marahil ang isa sa hindi ko makakalimutang taon.. na naging buong-buo ako dahil sa pamilya kong unti-unting binuo ulit ng panahon at pagkakataon.

The biggest blessing in our lives is simply the presence of people who care much,

whose love is for real, and see us much beyond ourselves… 

Bisita

[Isip-Isip] [Lakad-lakad] [Isip-Isip] [Pabalik-balik]

Ito ang ginawa ko matapos kong malaman na may dadating pala akong espesyal na bisita.  Hmm… hindi ko maintindihan kung matutuwa ba ako o magtatago o hahayaan ko na lang lumipas ang araw na ito.  Mahirap siyempre na maging bisita ang isang taong naging malapit sa iyo kasama ang kanyang asawa, hindi ba?  Kung ito man ay isang simpleng kumustahan o salu-salo, alam na kaya ng sarili ko kung paano ihahandle ang ganitong sitwasyon nang hindi naman magmumukhang kawawa o engot sa harap nila?

Back to Square One ba?

O ito kaya ay magdulot ng panibagong sigalot dahil sa pagpayag kong makihalubilo pa sa kanila… Tapat nga kaya ang kanilang hangarin na magkita-kita pa o maging isang oportunidad kaya ito para magsumbatan muli, mag-ungkatan ng mga bagay na isinara ko na…

Kaya ko nga kayang maging masaya sa harap nila?

Kaya ko nga kayang talikuran ang bawat tingin na may ibang nais ipahiwatig?

Kaya ko nga kayang gawin uli ang tumalikod sa taong minahal… at maaaring may puwang pa rin?

Sa dami ng bisitang dadating sa buhay ko… bakit ngayon lang ako nag-iisip ng ganito…

Ikaw na marahil ang pinaka-espesyal kong bisita… na gusto ko mang pagsarhan ng pinto…. hindi ko maiwang nakalock… dahil alam na alam mo kung saan nakalagay ang susi..

Haay!  <Pag-ibig na WengWeng>

trust

The issue of "trust and sincerity" is coming into my senses again.  Isn't it tiring to always hear and see friends who, despite the years and connections, can abruptly put these two under question.  Most of the time, I don't spend time asking what and why… my heart has grown tired of disappointments whenever matters of these kind happen.

I tend to be cold until you never see the old friend in me.  It wears out gradually. 

I never chose them over the other.  

I don't know when will my heart learns the value of trusting again… tsk tsk tsk