Mommy Yayo

Well, obviously, I am a Yayonatic for this season of PBB Celebrity Edition… I broke my promise again… well, oh well… Yayo deserves it!!!

Way to go, Miss Yayo!!! Yahoooo!!! 

Touched by Sheggz’s Angels

My Loving Father, watch over those whose names You see in my heart. 
Dry their tears and ease their worries, restore their health and guard them with care. Amen.

The Glorietta 2 bombing reminded me of God's blessings.  I am overwhelmed until now…

I was greatly touched by the love and concern shown by the text messages, emails and overseas calls and texts from friends and families who were bothered by that tragic incident.  They knew exactly just how close our office is to that site…. just a few steps away.

Just this afternoon, I was touched by a friend's remarks…

"Kung nagkataon, andon kami sa Glorietta at umiiyak.  Sasabihin namin na.. Ay oo.. kaibigan po namin yan.. Gala po talaga yan hahahaha"

I texted my Mom that I was safe… and there was nothing to worry about… that was Friday.  We never thought that our Lola, Ina Minting, was really worried.  We reached home at 11pm.  Prior to that, this was what's running inside my Lola's mind…

"Baka ba… sinabi lang na buhay pero nakasama pala sa nasabugan… si Shereena pa naman eh napakahilig magbiro…"

Hehehehe

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH… You just don't know how I've appreciate it… I am touched by my own set of angels…

Mwah Mwah Mwah!!! <hug>

Change

Never let anyone make you feel that you don't deserve what you want.

You are worthy of your happiness.

What they say doesn't change anything, it doesn't change you, unless you let it.

My being "walang paki" came late.  I grew up being so sensitive, conscious and cautious at what people see or think about me.  I grew up "in a box".  It limits my being human actually.

"Walang paki" not on a negative note is good.  If you think what other people say about you will do anything good to you, then allow yourself to do necessary adjustments.  But if "comments and suggestions", though freely given, would lead you "good" but alienated, then "don't do it."  You know how to live your life.  If in case, it turns sour, you know exactly how to fix it.

You know yourself better than anyone else… Learn the lesson of filtering what's good and what's not for you. 

Reflections 101

Bernz sent me this… though I regularly received texts of the same content, I felt relief at the time I read this.

Sometimes, God breaks our spirit to save our soul.

Sometimes, He breaks our heart to make us whole.

Sometimes,  He sends us pain so we can be stronger.

Sometimes, He sends us failure so we can be humble.

Sometimes, He sends us illness so we can take better care of ourselves.

Sometimes, He takes 'everything' away from  us so we can learn the value of 'everythiing' we had.

Time for Yayo ;-)

Well, PBB Celebrity Edition is back.  I'm rooting for none other than Ms. Yayo Aguila… my first day bet.
Why Yayo?  Setting aside my being a "Bagets Fan" eversince so as not to be biased, I find her so simple yet so uncomplicated.  Being in a crowd who are a lot younger and majority are single, her charm bridged the gap.

Her aura reflects a happy disposition. No bad blood. Very cool, carefree, friendly and understanding.  Look closely on how she smiles…. and you'll see just how sweet Ms. Yayo is.

The way she's handling her life is a struggle but is a victory in its self… and I respect her with that.  Her stay inside the House of Kuya is worth watching.

Big Brother and the viewers just got lucky to have "Yayo Aguila" inside the house… I am excited to see just
how she shares her life, her wisdom and her love to all her housemates…

and from that we will learn a lot…

You'll gonna love YaYo! My Big Winner for PBB Celebrity Edition 2

My two other bets are Gaby dela Merced and Riza Santos… Gaby reminds me so much of Gretchen Malalad… Kudos mga Astig!!!  Run the Race!!!

Holding Hands

A few years more and I'll be turning 30 na.  And as far as I can remember, misunderstandings between my parents and my lola's sister, who happened to be our close neighbor, started when I was still in my sophomore years in highschool.  As to who is to be blame and who is making the right and wrong judgement, I never attempted to answer.  Our silence to this issue and not intervening on their arguments are our ways of showing respect to my parents but in our young minds, we never took sides of the matter. 

I heard, Nanang Lucing [my Lola's sister], was confined and undergo serious operation.. she's way too old to be confined… and as from my Lola's stories… she's not really well… still in the stage of recovering… My Lola asked me to text my Auntie to go and buy Marie biscuits, Milo, and anything that could be brought to Nanang Lucing.  I told my Lola… "Ako na lang po ang bibili… dadalhin na lang namin bukas.."

My Lola was teary-eyed.  She told me… "Baka magalit ang nanay at tatay mo…"  And I replied… "Okay lang yun."

I was with my Aunts and my Lola when I visited the sick.  "Mano po, Nanang."  I never convinced and forced my brother to go down…

Nanang Lucing, smiled to me… and asked.. "Sino ba ire?"  I said, "si Shereen po."  I saw in her face a big surprise… and she hold my hand so tight… and she began to cry…

The people around us are all teary-eyed.. they were all telling her "Wag na po kayong umiyak…."

No matter how hard it is for her to speak up… she clearly said.. "Maraming Salamat, Ineng… dinalaw mo ako.." And tears just fell instantly in her cheeks…

My Lola was worried at how my parents will react at my decision to pay visit.  I am thinking of justifications in mind but I was never bothered.  After that, I went to the other house where my parents live.. they knew where I came from.  And no one dares to ask me… as if nothing else happened.  I am waiting to be scolded by my father but to no avail…. no nasty remarks or shall I say… no remarks were given relating to that.  I told my Mom, "Dinalaw namin si Nanang…"

I was telling myself… "Nanang Lucing hasn't done anything wrong to me or to my brother.  If there's anything problematic… it wasn't ours but theirs, why carry the burden?  Why inherit something that you know is not good?"

Her days are numbered and I am so happy that in that remaining days, my simple gesture of visiting have brought relief in her.  I may not represent "forgiveness" among my parents but I carried along "humility" and "uncomplicated heart" that I know will be remembered even if she will be in heaven.

If "holding hands" is a sign of "forgiveness" on the part of Nanang Lucing, for me it's just a reassuring gesture of "acceptance". I am more blessed to witness that smile while she's still alive…

That opportunity gave me one of the best blessings in life… to greatly appreciate the smile of a person dying. And I thank "Tuesdays with Morrie" for allowing me to find good out of it. 

I was never hard-hearted.  I just know when and where to forgive those I know is deserving of that…

I am blessed… and I have all the more reasons to be happy… why allow hatred to rule my heart?

That's why I am blessed.

Lil Bro Bonding

Home is where your heart is… that's exactly true!  That's why I always look forward to going home every weekend.  I'm more excited because I'll be sharing the trip with my brother.  It's going to be one fun "jamming while driving and eating".

It's one that I really missed… bonding with my lil bro.  We spent the day together, a lunch treat, malling, finding gifts, attending children's party in Pixie Forest, grocery, going home hungry, foodtripping, soundtripping… etc.  Whatta great weekend, isn't it?

It's what I promised to myself… that after his bar reviews, we will go back to what we usual do… BONDING MOMENT!!! That's what we're famous of… we were known to be really good buddies… despite the many misunderstandings that have tested our ways of being "ate and bunso"…

Till next weekend… it's going to be another fun-filled… Ovel and Obong moments….

Nuh Ha Na Man

While thinking of something else, I suddenly heard one familiar song.  I stayed quiet for a while and listened carefully … It's a Korean song actually … of course, I don't know the lyrics but the tune was so heartbreaking …. and I began to cry … I know the title but I have translated it wrongly… Nuh Ha Na Man, I based it in verbatim synonymous to English…. I thought it was No Other Man… but it's Only You… is Lovers in Paris OST.

It made reminded me of the "thursday encounter" with someone.  And upon hearing the song, is the only chance for me to really pour the hurt out of my system… I don't even care if I was with my brother at that time.. I just wanted to release it out… I need to pour it out … Nobody knows as to what extent I was really hurt by that moment… but it deeply affected me that I could still remember it clearly in mind.

No Other Man could hurt me the way I was hurt.  And I was really asking myself why I am letting him to affect as that…

Para akong batang musmos na naligaw at naiwan sa isang hindi pamilyar na lugar at naiwan ng magulang at hagulhol sa pag-iyak…

But I was not ashamed of anyone if I have cried out loud… that's the part of Sheggz that I love seeing… "the syunga-syunga that have loved truly and was trying to really move on and ends up always failing at forgetting hehehehe"

Nuh Ha Na Man (only You) Lovers In Paris
Jo Sung Mo

A jik ha ji mot han ma ri man heun de
A jik joo ji mot han gut do man heun de
I byu ri ran hang sang gap ja gi wa suh
Byun myung jo cha joon bi hal soo ga up suh
Wae keu rae ssuh i rul mal ha gi kka ji
Do dae che ul ma na hon ja suh oon guh ya
Ba bo gat i keu gut do mo reu ko uhl him deul ge haet duhn
Nae ga duh mi woo jyuh

*nuh ha na man a moo mal an hae do
Na eui noon man bwa do nae ma eum eul
Al gon haet jan ha
Nuh ha na man boo di haeng bok ha ra neun
In sa do jin shim i a nin guhl da al jan ha

Jab go ship eun ma eum eul deul gil kka bwa
Moo seun ma reul han ji do mo reu ge ssuh
Sa rang i ran ga ggeum gu ji seul mal hae
O hi ryuh duh ki peun sang chuh reul joo nae

Gi ok ha ni na ha na man i sseu myuhn
I se sang uh di deun chuhn hollywood i dwe da myuh
A i chuh ruhm hwan han oo seum eu ro
Nae uh dom ma juh do balk hyu joon nuh jan ha

*nuh ha na man a moo mal an hae do
Na eui noon man bwa do nae ma eum eul
Al gon haet jan ha
Nuh ha na man boo di haeng bok ha ra neun
In sa do jin shim i a nin guhl da al jan ha

Ka ji ma nan nuh yuh ya man hae
Nuh ha na ppoon in guhl nuhn uhn je kka ji na

Na ral jan ha sa rang han sa ram do
A peu ro sa rang hal sa ram do nuh
Ha na ppoon i ya
Ni ap e suhn nuh moo suh tool gi man han na ji man
Nae mam mo reu ni keu ruhl soo man it da myun
Nuh wa nae ga seum eul ba kkool ten de.

Oh well… end of all those tears… let's go back to the Happy Lovers in Paris… I am happy as well that there's one guy who made me fall like this… and I know no one will ever bring me to that situation again…

Escalator

The unexpected encounter happened last Thursday in one of the most unexpected time of the day.  I thank God that I was with my officemate at the time it happened.  It passed very quick but that was among one of the longest times in my life that I felt I almost hold my breath for so long hehehe

My heart skipped beating I should say hahaha

How come that person can still have that amazing power to hurt me in ways nobody else can… What's in him that up to now I am still bothered and affected?  Not the usual effect.  Hmm.. True Love Effect ba?

I was just so thankful that I was tasked to do something else that it occupied all my brain cells that I forgot to think of that aweful encounter…

That's how we love… loved?  No.  That's how I still love… Toink Toink Toink!!! Grrr!!!!

Raymond’s Full Circle

I went to a record bar in Landmark yesterday to look for a Carrie Underwood's Carnival Ride album but I was surprised to see that Raymond Lauchengco has just released an album entitled "Full Circle".  Approved without thinking, I bought it without even seeing what songs are included in the album.  I get it in a quick because I know that if it's from Raymond… it must be worth buying… setting aside that I am a big fan of Raymond eversince.

While having my lunch, I thought of checking the tracklist.  I was laughing all out when I saw that most of my well-loved 80's songs are on the list… Hahahaha The first song I saw on the list was "Wake me up Before You Go Go!"… I remembered me and my bro came to present this in one of our family reunions before… we're too old for that repeat again … hehehe

Even in my friendster profile, I've mentioned about my passion for the 70's and 80's music because I believe that the great songs came from that genre… that's the peak of MUSIC!

These are the songs I grew up and danced with in my elementary and early high school days… Hahaha

I recommend Raymond's new album for the young at hearts but certified dekada otsenta babies hahaha.  You'll be surprised that the arrangements of these songs are entirely different… I would not reveal it yet.  I would want you guys to get a copy it… You'll definitely be proud that a new twist in your well-loved songs has just arrived through Raymond… Wooohoo!

The album contains the following:

• Head Over Heels by the Go-Gos

• Walking on Sunshine by Katrina and the Waves

• Let's Go by Wang Chung

• Never Gonna Give YOu Up by Rick Astley

• Together in Electric Dreams by Human League

• Always Something there to Remind Me by Dionne Warwick

• You to Me are Everything by the Real Thing

• Everybody Wants to Rule the World by Tears for Fears

• Wake Me up Before You Gogo by Wham

 

Hope to see you on Friday, October 26, 6pm at the Shangri-la Mall. I’ll be there to perform cuts from the album with a live band. It’ll be a swingin’, fun evening that I hope you and your friends will attend!

- Raymond Lauchengco in www.raymondlauchengco.com