Who u?!

Life is taking our photograph.  We often pose what we want to see and be seen.  But sometimes, by taking stolen shots, we capture who we really are….

As I carefully assess myself, I tend to agree that sometimes I am so extreme…

-          Lunatic but smart (from Matto)
-          Outgoing but reserved
-          Liberated but conservative
-          Jologs but intelligent (hahaha according to Atty. Ave)
-          Mababaw na Malalim (huh?!?)
-          Madaldal na tahimik
-     Makulit na Mahinhin
-          Lukang-lukang matino (hanuba?!)
-          Pakialamerang walang paki

A split in personality sometimes is caused by how you would want people to perceive you and the unseen is what that is really you… a battle between perceived acceptance and rejection…

So going back to the stated quotation… the stolen shots are the real ones… unmasked.  No matter how carefully you cover yourself… the real you will still be noticed… unnoticed.

Ask any of my family members and I am sure they’ll be having a unanimous answer… “Naku… hindi mabait yan.  Mataray yan!”

But I am sure they will all agree that I am not bad.  I keep on mentioning.. “ayokong maging mabait… gusto ko lang maging mabuti.”

Yearn to Learn

Yearn to Learn

“Things are falling into place… hmmm exciting!”

That’s what I told myself the moment I went out of the conference room yesterday.  The work is tough, the project is large and critical but this is one area of IT Management I wish to venture into.  It is clearly stated in my CV.  I am always definite at what path in IT I am inclined to do.  Eversince I don’t want to stay at one area, leaving no room for discovery and improvement.  There’s fulfillment and self-gratification that IT career is bringing.  That is primarily the reason why I cannot deviate nor I cannot stop.  I’ve tried applying for other positions but it would always bring me to this… The task is not at all “that easy” and would require me an ample time to study and learn the ins and outs of it… but it’s the challenge posed by the job that makes me going… yearning to learn. I am eager at learning new things on my own but I never stop at that.  I still would want to learn how professionally it should be done.  This is my gauge at discovering how far or how close is my self-learning to classroom-based instructions.

I was supposed to accept another job on a graveyard schedule on technical writing but I defer my application, not because, I don’t need extra income (actually I need it!) but I am weighing things out so as not to make the more important matters suffer because of improper time management. The pains of yesterdays and yesteryears will be my gains in the coming days and years.  Not at all bad.  The things of the past will hone you to be ready for the future.  God is the best project manager.  For He is good at planning, scheduling, of anticipating, of delegating, of assuming, of implementing, of managing risks, finding and resolving defects, of dealing with everything… and I am struggling to always be in His team

All the things I’ve wished are now coming … just in time … at the least expected time it would be realized… I am truly blessed. Galing!

Be One

Honestly, I am happy that finally, I get into step 1…. having a song published even though the song has really been overhauled hehehe.

But I would still want to improve the craft on a personal level and mingle with those who have the same passion as I am. I am delighted actually to become a member of the mailing list of KATHA where I get to be aware and be informed of what's really happening in the music industry.  Not just to be informed of the gigs but on the plans and on the problems that the professional and even amateur songwriters, lyricists, publishers, producers and arrangers are encountering.

Get the feel of it.  So unfortunate to miss the 2nd Songwriter's Afternoon but I'm too excited to participate on the coming event.  

This has always been my dream… to be with the people I've come to admire… and the people who speak the same language of Music… and that's where you could think of … to what extent can you truly share the gift you have within your self.

It's not actually to perform… but to write songs that other people could hear… that's my known expression of who I am and what I feel.  I'm still in Step 1 and it's all stepping up.  No point of going down.

This is the Personal Legend.  Just what Maris says…. "Music is my Life."

For the greatest adventure that has just started… I am joining… and I would definitely win….

For the greatest journey starts with Hitch Na…. so on and so forth….

what makes life interesting is the "so on and so forth!".

By the Merits

My brother and I were having serious talk last week.  It's about handling finances, plans of putting up a small business, marital plans (ahem!) and applying for work.

He shared this…

"Kung gugustuhin kong magkatrabaho, madali lang para sa akin.  Pero ayokong magkakatrabaho ako dahil sa ipinakiusap.  Gusto ko pa rin by the merits."

And I replied…

"Oo naman.  Mahirap yung may tinatanaw kang utang na loob.  Kung ano mang maging kinahinatnan mo sa trabahong iyon.. wala kang ibang ibablame kundi sarili mo…" 

That has always been my view. I would always want to be recognized by the merits and not by affiliations.  It went across my mind the question of… "ohh… did they really recognize the talent?" or "they just don't want me to get disappointed again on this craft…. hmm…"

I would like to believe, that somehow… merits was used as basis for that…

First Day Toink

Though I'm having flu and bad cough since Friday, I still managed to woke up for my first day @ work.  As early as 5:30am, my mom, my bro and my friend sent their wake up texts.  

I'm not feeling well actually, but I can't help but attend the company orientation.  I was in Ayala at around 8:15am, and instead of going in front, I decided to take the driveway at the back.  I was laughing because I got lost.  I can't remember which driveway will lead me to the entrance… I asked the guard and he's making kwento pa… I told him… "new employee ako… naligaw lang ako actually…"

I was in the reception area at around 8:25am and submitting my ID.  I was rushing till I get to the elevator and hit the 12th floor. My hands are full.  I was really hungry.  While the elevator was on the 7th floor… I heard a long and loud message tone… that is so familiar to me…

"Tuwiduwidup… Tuwiduwidup… Doo Dooo Dooo Dooo"   

Inasmuch as I would want to remain still, my knees automatically bent and my hands were about to move the Papaya way of Edu…

I closed my eyes so firm and silently whispered! "Shocks!  Nasa labas ka ng bahay… Grrr!!!"  Thank God that nobody noticed my papaya moves… hahahaha

Ipapahamak ako ng "Tuwiduwidup… Tuwiduwidup" na yan ah!  I went straight to the comfort room and continued what I was supposed to dance…. Hahaha