Grrr!!!

Sometimes, I wish that somehow the level of initiative, sense of urgency and responsibility is equal among ourselves.

I get easily pissed off when I'm seriously talking in front,  thinking and discussing something and suddenly someone would just crack up jokes or say something that is totally nonsense.  It takes several brain cells to vibrate just to get a damn idea and someone will just throw a nonsense joke to ruin it…. hmp!

It's hard to keep your temper in the midst of serious tasks, deadlines and people who misbehave.

Sometimes, it's easier to work independently.  But there's no choice but to work with teams.

Patience, my dear… patience

Bring Back Gaby

Oh well, the forumers are back in full force again.  I was informed that there are on-going petitions at forums to Bring Gaby Dela Merced Back in PBB Celebrity Edition.

So I drafted a letter and send it immediately.  <Uber Fanatic mode>

November 15, 2007

I am one with the countless supporters of Gaby dela Merced appealing to the management of Pinoy Big Brother to have her back in ways similar to Balik Bahay strategy once implemented in PBB Season 2. 

I have been an active forumer of PBB since the 1^st season of it and I have kept my faith that the thrust of PBB is after a personality that has distinctive and admirable trait.  Paying heed to the call of putting a deserving personality as Big Winner has convinced me to suggest that Gaby, indeed is qualified to be one.  I look at this competition not just a battle of personalities but a battle of principle.  

She might have chosen to leave PBB because of previous commitment and compelled to do so because of the 24-hour constraints.  She might have decided pursuing that passion because she knows that it has greater and longer impact to her and to our country which greatly rely on her and her racing skills. It is her responsibility as an athlete to go and improve her craft and not to take it for granted.  I find her very responsible for her actions and her passion.  But setting aside those complexities, we cannot just simply ignore that Gaby has huge following and a candidate for that deserving title.  It might be a personal decision to leave but give us the chance to prove that it’s the people’s clamor that will bring her back and will continue her quest in PBB. 

May you consider this request and give Gaby an opportunity again to prove her worth.  Who knows?  The nation’s pride might be PBB Celebrity Season 2’s big pride, too!  I will never go to a certain extent as this if I don’t believe in a person.  It’s just that I found something in her that I am very sure that there’s more her than just being a race goddess… in her own right, she proves to everyone … she is a born winner. 

I won’t do this if I don’t believe she can make it.   Bring Back Gaby…

Thank you and hoping for your most favorable action.

Actually I have two bets for this season, Yayo Aguila and Gaby Dela Merced!!! 

The Joy in my Heart

Love is like energy.  It can never be created nor destroyed.  It is just always there.  You just have to realize that fact and you have to learn that as soon as you stopped loving him in the way you did that love left to somewhere else.  Now all you have to do is find out where that love went.  That love went to whoever the next person in your life will be.  That next person could be one of your friends or someone you might dislike, you just have to find that out.

- Ian Philpot quotes

I have roughly lil time spent in sleeping in almost 3 days already.  My mind has been pre-occupied with beating deadlines that I skipped thinking of the less necessary things and avoided analyzing the situations that I know will surely affect my being and my moods.  Ask me of the very critical and problematic issues at work and I can answer it well but ask me about personal issues… i have no wise answers for it…

Oopps… I mentioned about "less necessary things".  But that made me think more than the deadlines I had…. hehehe

I am no longer in pain.  But there were some decisions that had made me feel so empty.  My officemates tend to call me "NR or NE", short for no reaction or no emotions at all.  Woohh!  I built around a fence around me that I do not allow anyone to hurt me again… I don't want it to happen again.

I dropped a tear.  And in the end, I smiled.  It has just described just how happy and sad I was in the entire journey that loving this person has led me.  I say goodbye to that man and to that feelings… but never on the memories and lessons it made me feel so human.

This is it.  The end of it all.    

For today, I am leaving two quotes for you to reflect on… Stay in love and keep love in your heart… ;-) 

Loving is a feeling that brings both joy and pain to my heart. Joy from being with you, being filled with an emotion so deep and tender that no other feeling can compare. Pain from knowing that I'm so in love, that I'm more vulnerable than I've ever.”

Keep love in your heart. A life without it is like a sunless garden when the flowers are dead. The consciousness of loving and being loved brings a warmth and richness to life that nothing else can bring.”