The Joy in my Heart

Love is like energy.  It can never be created nor destroyed.  It is just always there.  You just have to realize that fact and you have to learn that as soon as you stopped loving him in the way you did that love left to somewhere else.  Now all you have to do is find out where that love went.  That love went to whoever the next person in your life will be.  That next person could be one of your friends or someone you might dislike, you just have to find that out.

- Ian Philpot quotes

I have roughly lil time spent in sleeping in almost 3 days already.  My mind has been pre-occupied with beating deadlines that I skipped thinking of the less necessary things and avoided analyzing the situations that I know will surely affect my being and my moods.  Ask me of the very critical and problematic issues at work and I can answer it well but ask me about personal issues… i have no wise answers for it…

Oopps… I mentioned about "less necessary things".  But that made me think more than the deadlines I had…. hehehe

I am no longer in pain.  But there were some decisions that had made me feel so empty.  My officemates tend to call me "NR or NE", short for no reaction or no emotions at all.  Woohh!  I built around a fence around me that I do not allow anyone to hurt me again… I don't want it to happen again.

I dropped a tear.  And in the end, I smiled.  It has just described just how happy and sad I was in the entire journey that loving this person has led me.  I say goodbye to that man and to that feelings… but never on the memories and lessons it made me feel so human.

This is it.  The end of it all.    

For today, I am leaving two quotes for you to reflect on… Stay in love and keep love in your heart… ;-) 

Loving is a feeling that brings both joy and pain to my heart. Joy from being with you, being filled with an emotion so deep and tender that no other feeling can compare. Pain from knowing that I'm so in love, that I'm more vulnerable than I've ever.”

Keep love in your heart. A life without it is like a sunless garden when the flowers are dead. The consciousness of loving and being loved brings a warmth and richness to life that nothing else can bring.”