I’d still say yes….

I was never one to patiently pick up broken fragments and glue them together again and tell myself that the mended whole was as good as new. What is broken is broken — and I'd rather remember it as it was at its best than mend it and see the broken places as long as I lived.

- Margaret Mitchell

Last night's conversation with a friend made me think a hundred times or more about each and every considerations I had to deal before making a very hard decision.  That was I guess, one of the very unusual times, that I felt I need to open up.  A lot of questions that I tried answering but nothing comes to mind when this question was posed… "What would you tell your child why you weren't together?" 

Till I woke up… I still remember that question…

It wasn't easy… but I'd still say "YES"… not to "YOU" but to "FREEDOM"…  Signs are telling me not to… 

Looks

I was known to a lot of my friends and my family as a very simple-dresser.  I dress very plain.  I've been advised several times to dress up, find time to fix myself more and look good.  I always get reminders from Besku and my brother that there are a lot of good outfits that I need to try wearing on.

I do that at very rare occasions or at anytime my mood is okay.  No extraordinary with my pair of jeans and casual shirt.

And everytime I am broken-hearted, I always find myself the worst-dresser the world has ever known.  No fancy make-up at all.

But I'm fond of looking at fashion magazines… and I don't apply it hehehe.

Lately, I met a friend who dresses very very well. And I told myself, I should try having an overhaul.  Hmm.. Why not?!

It feels good to look good dba? 

Decisions

When you're bound to make very serious decisions, your mind is set to weigh all the pros and cons.  Sometimes because of being so blinded by love, you tend to overlook and ignore the disadvantages.  The happiness it will bring and the pains it will cause all the people surrounding you who had nothing in mind but to see me happy and complete.  It's very hard to know that you're just the only one happy and the rest is sad.  It may be easy to say "I just wanna be happy… and all that…" but in my case, I have to be sensitive and responsible at being happy.

If making decisions is as easy as sitting at the corner and waiting till the leaves fall down… there wouldn't be any problem at all. 

If getting married is just a piece of cake that could easily be sliced and choosing him is as easy as 1-2-3-4-5.  

As William Barclay says, "Love always involves responsibility, and love always involves sacrifice."