To Win

Last Sunday morning, I was confiding to a friend.  We were so serious at trying out flag football on Saturday.  I remembered telling her… "Alam mo, Meds… noong bata ako.. ke babae kong tao pero anlikot ko sa field.  Panalo lagi ang team ko pag hagaran-suguran.  Anlikot ko grabe… May isang partner ako.. si Toti.. na para kaming kiti-kiti.  At kaya gusto kong sumali ng flag football, gusto kong makita ko ulit ang sarili ko sa lugar na halos "bahay" na sa akin… ang laruan.  Idol ko nga dati si Jaworski sa pambabalya na parang wala lang hehehe.  At kaya ako napagkakamalang lalaki eh dahil pag nasa ganoong sitwasyon, kilos lalaki talaga ako.  Hindi kailangan ang kilos babae sa ganong pagkakataon diba?  Hindi ako marunong maglaro ng flag football, pero lalaro ako.  Kelangan kong gawin para sa sarili ko."

"I don’t know why I’m having a strange feeling that I need to win lately.  I need to compete.  I need to compete and win. And if I won’t be scared of trying it now, I know I would win.  If there’s one perfect time for that, I feel I should not miss competing now.  It’s all or nothing."

It came out of my lips so unexpectedly.  A spur of the moment, I should say.  But the feeling still resides.  It’s still within me.  And it’s moving me.  I don’t know why.

Prize is secondary.  But what would make it a lot worthwhile is to have the courage to compete.  This is what I need.  I don’t know if it’s into sports or into music… but in any way I can, I should do it.

The passion is driving me to win… help me God!