Anonymous

Good morning, dear blog-hoppers! 

It’s been 2 years and 1 month to be exact that I ended up being just a forumer on the threads to actually be meeting personally the people behind the many groups I’ve joined with.  And I tell you, it wasn’t as easy as anyone thought it is.  If first encounters ended up with first smiles and autographs, my life wouldn’t be bugged by people I hardly know of.  But sustaining friendships entail trust, respect of being and privacy.  It’s the same I give to my friends in and out.  And only those who know me very well, realize and give equal importance to what I am giving them.. trust… respect of being and privacy. Given the choice, I would have stayed silent and maintained a complex-free life as I used to be.  Anonymous yet very well respected.

There’s no such thing as preconceived obligation on the forum groups.  No one imposed obligation and loyalty.  Who are they to instruct me of such, I am not being paid for anything nor I demand payment for that so nobody is in the position to impose rules. 

I am just happy with this thought. 

I hardly see them.  I hardly even text them.  I hardly know their likes and dislikes (no sense at all in knowing). Tight schedules and other commitments limit my chances of getting along with them.  They meet other people who equally admire them.  They have shared more bondings than I was able to share.  But despite of it all, they can never forget someone with the name "sheggz".  For whatever reason they have in mind, it’s more than enough.  I need not to do a lot of effort to be recognized, I just have to be me.  And I’m being loved for that.

My life doesn’t end in somebody else’s lifestyles.
It is not my life to always run after them. 
I have a name of my own respected on the basis of how I lived my life and how I treated other people.
Even before I became hooked to meeting them, there’s more to my life that I need to achieve… more than becoming a shadow fan of somebody else.

And my parents basic rule:  "Do not step on anyone for your own advantage."

It’s the rarity and scarity of people who can be true is what I am giving them.  Being good is a struggle.