Ang takdang panahon

Kilala ako ng mga kaibigan at kapamilya ko na kung magdesisyon ay parang buhawi na bigla-bigla na lang.  Pero kilala din naman ako na pag nagdesisyon… dire-diretso.

Hmm.. ano nga kaya kung bigla akong magpakasal?  Nasa tamang edad na naman.. nasa tamang huwisyo … at nararamdaman kong tama naman yung taong pwedeng pakasalan.

Hindi para maiba naman… kundi para makapagsimula na ng bagong buhay may-asawa sa panahong nararamdaman mong…. "siya na nga" at "this is it!".  Di ba nga sabi ni Popoy sa One More Chance, baka dumating na yung taong, magtatama nang maraming mali mo sa buhay.

Tiingggg!!!

Bakit ba ako lalayo pa ng tingin, ang matagal ko nang hinahanap ay pwede palang napakalapit lang sa akin at saksakan ng layo akong tumingin…

Hmmm.. maaaring pwede na nga… ganda ng wedding ring

Super Linggo!!!

Isang makabuluhan at produktibong linggo na naman ang nagbabadyang matapos. <stretching stretching> Nang tingnan ko ang malaki kong desk calendar, aakalain mong mini-blog articles ang naisulat ko sa bawat araw.  Kung may kakayanan nga lang itong mag-blink at mag-animate, nag-wish ako na sana ay kaya nya nga.  Hindi ko nga akalaing matatapos ko ang linggong ito dahil noong nakaraang weekend, halinhinan kami ni Shem sa pagtetxt ng mga takot, sentimyento, alalahanin, at kung anu-ano pa tungkol sa mga kinakaharap na trabaho.  Si Shem ang tumatayong nebulizer ko sa tuwinang nararamdaman kong super stressed out na ako at may nakakasalamuha akong mga nuknukan na mga abnormal ang attitude sa trabaho.  At neto nga lang weekend, change roles naman kami, si Sheggz muna pansamantala ang nebulizer ni Shem hehehe.

Sa nararamdaman kong stress, gusto ko na rin pag-aralang mag-yosi o maglaro ng Dota, o gayahin si Mae na halos linggo-linggo ay nagpapagupit ng buhok, o si Mark na ultimo pinakasulok na tindahan ng Weh na shirt sa Greenhills ay nakikita.  Pero ang tanging kaya ko lang gawin ay bumuntung-hininga ng malalim at sunud-sunod nguyain ang chocolates na nasa tabi ko.

Daming e-mails. May nagfofollow-up na ng mga bagay na ni first page ay hindi ko pa nagagawa.  May waiting line din sa mga utak namin at iba ay standing ovation na.  Naging normal na para sa amin ang maging karugtong ng pang-araw-araw na buhay namin ang madaling araw na uwi sa bahay para maligo lang  

Natawa na nga lang ako kanina.  12:30pm na ako nagising kundi pa ako tinext ng boss ko hehehehe… Ansarap matulog pag sobrang pagod…. totoo pala talaga yun.

Salamat na rin lang sa paloko-lokong internet connection ko at malaking kabawasan sa abala ang mag-friendster, mag-blog at magforums hehehe.  Hindi naman to complaints, actually.. masaya talaga ako sa mga naging accomplishments ko ngayong linggo.  Alam ko naman kasing hindi pa tapos ang linggo namin hehehehe extended pala until weekend.  Masayang sa pagod mo ay may taong handang mang-asar, mangulit at manloko… di ba Daddehh?  (lol)

Salamat din sa I CAN SERVE at ginulat ninyo ako sa mabilis na response ninyo sa request kong libro.  Hayaan ninyo, sana makatulong din ako sa organization na ito…  Salamat din at makakapag-Muay Thai na ako sa katapusan ng buwan na ito… yahooo!!!

Pero higit sa lahat, ipinagpapasalamat ko… na muling naibalik sa Nagtahan Bridge ang hilera ng mga ilaw na nagpapalit-palit ng kulay.  Sobrang saya ko na naibalik ang tanging "senyales" ko na malapit na akong bumaba sa Nagtahan.  Hindi na tuloy ako nakakalampas.

Magandang tingnan, Mayor Lim.   Wag mo na ulit tatanggalin ha?

Ooppss… looking forward na din ako sa Friday night para sa Tuesdays with Morrie sa Onstage…. at sa Saturday night… dahil finally, makakapagbonding ko naman ang PDA Idol kong si Panky Trinidad… yahoo!  Kitakits!

Happy Happy Weekend!!! <isipin mo na lang, Friday na!>

One More Chance

I made the right decision of not watching “One More Chance” in the Big Screen with my “friends”.  I got the DVD copy of it just last week and so lucky to be alone in the room to finally watch it.

Oh my.  I was just interested to check just how Beatriz Saw acted in this movie and I failed to remember that this movie I’ve long been trying to ignore watching.

I was glued to my seat when I heard familiar scenes and dialogues.  Honestly, I cried for it made me remember those words that I don’t wanna hear again.  So I decided to just turned it off even if I was just in the first few scenes of it.

Then came another chance to see this movie alone.  This time it’s different.

Here are some of unforgettable scenes in that movie, for me.

Friends Consoling Basha

Basha    :   Mali ba yung ginawa ko?  Ang sama sama ko bang tao?
Cracie    :  Of course not. 
Panj      :  Oh sige ,makipagbalikan ka na naman sa kanya, tapos mag-away na naman kayo.  Tapos magbalikan na naman kayo tapos mag-away na naman ulit kayo.
Cracie    :  Panj, para namang hindi natin kaibigan si Popoy nyan.  Di ba dapat tinutulungan nga natin sila para makapag-ayos?
Panj      :    Crazie, hindi maaayos yan kung hindi maayos si Basha. At hindi maaayos si Basha, kung palagi na lang silang magkasama, right, Bash?
Basha    :   Paano bukas?
Cracie    : Bash, you know me.  If kaya pang ayusin, pipilitin.  But if this is really what both of you need. Then just be strong.  Magiging mahirap at masakit, hopefully, all the pain would be worth it.

Basha Confiding to her Mom

Basha                : Pero ngayon lang talaga naging totoo….Sobrang sakeettt… 

Hospital Scene between Popoy and Gino

Gino      :           Hindi ko na alam, pare.  Ayoko na.  Hindi ko alam na ganito pala kasakit.  Ayoko na.  Take me Lord, please.
Popoy    :           Kung nakaya ko, kaya mo rin.  Di ba’t ikaw ang nagsabi sa akin.  Kaya tayo iniwan ng mga taong mahal natin, kasi baka merong bagong darating na mas okay.  Na mas mamahalin tayo.  Yung hindi tayo sasaktan at paasahin.  Yung nag-iisang tao lang na magtatama ng mali sa buhay natin, at ng lahat ng mali sa buhay mo.

Derek’s Wedding

  Derek:   Ikinasal alng ako hindi mo na ako kinakausap. Bash, kaya mo nang harapin kung ano man ang darating sa yo.

 

Trisha and Popoy's Breakup

Trisha :Sabihin mo na lang ang totoo, please?
Mahal mo ba ako?
Popoy:  Trisha naman, Mahal kita?
Trisha : Mahal mo ba siya?
Popoy:  Hindi kita kayang makitang nasasaktan.
Trisha: Paano kung masaktan man ako na hindi mo nakita?  Mahal mo pa ba siya?
Gusto mo na bang tapusin ito?
Popoy:  Mapapatawad mo ba ako? Popoy after the Breakup

Dimples:  Poy, hindi lang ikaw ang nasaktan.  Nasaktan din si Bash at nakita namin yun.
She went through hell because she was the only one brave enough to face the truth that there is something wrong with your relationship.
Friend:    Hindi naman naging sapat yun.  Nasaktan ka lang dahil hindi maluwag sa puso mo na ibigay sa kanya ang hinihingi nya sa yo.
Dimples:  Don’t you see it?  Kung hindi nya pinili gilan ang sarili niya at hinayaan niyang ikaw pa rin ang laging masunod? Her heart would be broken every moment she’s with you. Hanggang sa wala nang matira sa Bashan minahal mo.. Yun ba ang gusto mo, Poy?
Friend:  Ang tanong, Poy.. Mahal po ba siya?
Popoy:  Hindi naman nagbago yun eh.  I’m not just sure.  If love is enough.

UST Scene:

Popoy:  Sabi ng Mommy ko andito ka raw. Tuloy na ako sa Qatar.  Mga 3 years din ang kontrata ko dun. Basha:  Paano si Trisha?
Popoy:  Wala na kame.  She broke up with me.
Basha:  I’m sorry.  I’m Sorry.
Popoy:  No.  I’m sorry. I’m sorry for not saying sorry before na nasaktan kita. Hanggang sa magkahiwalay tayo.  Ang inisip ko… ang sarili ko lang.  Iyong nararamdaman ko lang… iyong gusto ko lang. I’m sorry Basha, naging madamot ako.  Hindi ko inintindi na kailangan mo ring hanapin ang Basha na nawala nang minahal mo ako.
Basha:  Ang Basha na mahal ka pa rin.
Popoy:  Hindi mo lang alam na gusto kong sabihin sa yo na.. Sana tayo na lang.. Sana tayo na lang uli… Ang nararamdaman ko eto na.. Hindi ko maiwasang maramdaman ulit lahat ng sakit.  And I’m sorry.
Basha:  Ano ang dapat kong gawin?
Popoy:  Ako naman ngayon.  Ako naman ang may kailangan ng panahon ngayon.   Para makalimutan ko lahat ng sakit.   Para maalala ko ang lahat ng maganda at mabuti sa atin.   Para mahanap ko naman iyong Popoy na nawala nang nagkahiwalay tayo.  I don’t want to stop it, Bash. Magiging tayo ulit.  Kaya kitang mahalin ng buong-buo…

Hehehehe… Sana naging pareho na lang ang naging ending namin… sana kami na lang ulit, Popoy at Basha.. hehehehe..  Weh ganon talaga… okay lang un

Pero maraming salita at scenes ang movie na ito na nagpaiyak sa akin.. Kamusta naman yon?

Save Me - "Aimee Mann"

Aimee Mann

You look like
A perfect fit
For a girl in need
Of a tourniquet

But can you, save me
Come on and, save me
If you could, save me
From the ranks of the freaks
Who suspect they could never love anyone

'Cause I can tell
You know what it's like
The long farewell
Of the hunger strike

But can you, save me
Come on and, save me
If you could, save me
From the ranks of the freaks
Who suspect they could never love anyone

You struck me down
Like Radium
Like Peter Pan or Superman

You will come to save me
C'mon and save me
If you could, save me
From the ranks of the freaks
Who suspect they could never love anyone
'Cept the freaks
Who suspect they could never love anyone
But the freaks
Who suspect they could never love anyone

Instrumental Verse 3:

C'mon and save me
Why don't you save me
If you could save me
From the ranks of the freaks
Who suspect they could never love anyone
'Cept the freaks
Except the freaks
Who suspect they could never love anyone
Except the freaks who could never love anyone

May Yabang si Sheggz

It was my friend Jang who first introduced me to "Yabang Pinoy" by wearing the Yabang Pinoy Band.  When I read the card, I remembered I saw this logo in Glorietta during  the Global Pinoy Bazaar last December and while strolling around Glorietta mall…. This is not just a simple band, my dear… it is an advocacy…

For more information about Yabang Pinoy, visit their website at http://www.yabangpinoy.com/

At ipagmalaki mong May Yabang ang Pinoy! Astig!  Ahoo Ahooo!

Blah Blah

Limitations also apply to humans.  If machines complaint about "restrictions" on "configured limitations", how much more with humans.  I certainly agree that when it comes to deadlines, a lot of people are hot-tempered and ill-mannered.  At times like these, I wish I am SuperWoman who can do all these things without seeking any help from others.  I'm allergic to manageable "blah blah blah".  I repeat… "manageable".

That's why when I'm overly pressured and stressed out, I preferred to be silently working, silently thinking, silently observing, silent at all times while delivering my outputs.  I act just like a machine and automatically shut off when all is done.

And when I'm finished, I stand up.. my silence is killing them softly.  I can deliver my tasks without much needed "blah blah blahs".  I saved excreting saliva, energy and brain cells for that.  Given the same opportunity of delivering outputs, who do you think is less tired and exhausted?  The one who made all those blah blah blah or the one that is silent?

I am prone to instant migraine that is really causing me much trouble.  If I meddle with strain-causing people, mostly likely to have migraines at all times.

I have my own ways of de-stressing it out… that can shut people off.

Oh well, before I end this blog, there's thing called "delegation."  Better make use of that to avoid "wrinkles".

Garlic Mushroom

Before I went to sleep, I sent this to one of my closest friends,

“Maybe it’s time to really choose.  I think I’ve already done my part and have  nothing more to do.  I’ve always been there and anyone knows that… I need not to prove anything more to anyone…. It’s just a realization that made me conclude… my stay is over and it was all worth less.  Why stay if you’re no longer serving your purpose.  It’s not about walking away… or something pushed me to do that, it’s moving on.  I have a life of my own and dreams waiting to be fulfilled… for which I am more excited.  For there had been times, I learned to accept even the unacceptable and understood and embraced even when you’re fooled.”

I know this is read by my intended reader and that person is very sensitive to feel that this message is intended for him | her.

It took me awhile to post this.  And a long breath to publish… not to hurt the feelings of the reader but to liberate myself from anything and to finally be true.  

I just hope we’ll learn a lot from the book “By the Flowing River” and we will remember each other with how we met and how we smiled.  For once, I’ve been sincere in writing what I have inserted in that book.

Race for your Dreams, Sheggz!

I hand in a poster and pooh notebook and was surprised to see that she signed in with “Follow your heart” on the poster and “Dream Big” on the notebook while others had “Follow your dreams!”, “Race for your dreams!”… why all of a sudden … “Follow your heart…” hehehe

I just smiled when I saw it.  I guess that’s a sign of something I intend to keep for myself na lang.  But definitely it has something to do with dreaming big and following what I love doing…

More beautiful than I expect her to be… there’s something in her smile that will make you admire her more and how she talks and how she sees you directly into your eyes makes you see the goodness in her soul.

I’m happy to see old friends in that venue…. Those that I’ve never seen for quite sometime…

In my heart, I said this…

Gretchen Malalad and Gaby dela Merced, both have not won big in PBB… but both celebrities that I’ve really admired …. They may be famous yet very grounded and simple.

Kudos to the Pinay Athletes!  My final salute goes to both of you… you are truly Big Winners in your own right and in the hearts of so many people you have touched with your passion and goodness of heart, including mine.

The best measure of being “Astig” is to make dreams real and still keeping good despite the fame…

TGIF… TGI Alive!

Oh well, it's Friday but I really can't say this with full conviction….   "Thank God, it's Friday!" as I see more pending documents on my desk.  It's so unusual that I am not complaining eventhough my body gets tired and my eyes are obviously sleepy.  I was even laughing at several times I couldn't resist sleeping in FX and in taxi and found myself lost in space hahahaha.

I love to finish my work actually.  I hate to see red-marks and "beating the deadline" attitude.  A couple of days ago, I asked my officemate, do you feel what I feel?  I was trying to revise the project plan and it seems not so easy to do?  Yeah! Just a plan and it seems I'm having migraine? 

I was just asking if what I'm feeling is normal or I am stressed out.

I would like to think that I still have time to relax and I could still find time to smile and de-stress… as I see some of my officemates whose projects and deadlines are too tight, I still feel so lucky hehehe.

It's a matter of time management that I need to follow.  If projects have project plan and QA has Test Plan, I find it necessary to have my personal priority management.

I miss going out actually.  I've been receiving calls, emails, friendster notes and offline messages about all the gimmicks I failed to attend to.  But only true friends who know  me by heart, will understand just how time is so precious to me now and not that I am setting aside my friends and families, it's just that only now do I experience loving my work and having to set priorities on my goals.

Thank God I'm Alive!! Happy Weekend everyone!

Tuesdays with Morrie

Synopsis:

Based on Mitch Albom's best selling book, TUESDAYS WITH MORRIE is a heart-warming play that perfectly combines comedy, drama and poignancy. In a challenging commitment of time and expense, busy sportswriter Mitch Albom makes weekly treks from Detroit to Boston so he could spend Tuesday mornings with his former professor Morrie Schwartz, who is dying of Lou Gehrig's disease. It unfolds the story of how these visits changed Mitch’s outlook on life. It is a feast for the mind and the heart.

Tuesdays With Morrie
Jan 11 - 27, 2008
8PM Fridays and Saturdays and 3:30 PM Saturdays and Sundays

Venue: OnStage 2/F Greenbelt 1, Ayala Center, Makati City

Tickets:  Orchestra Center: P550, Orchestra Side: P350 and Balcony : P250.

For tickets, call 8870710. Or logon to Ticketworld

ow I felt like wanting to visit an internet cafe tonight.  I browsed some pages and landed on Repertory Philippines website and found out that Tuesdays with Morrie will be staged in Greenbelt 1 Onstage this January.  I immediately texted Matto because she loved this book so much.

I pause for a while. Greenbelt is too far from Amadeo.  If there's anyone that I would want to invite… it's my own Morrie.. my Lolo.  If Mitch has tuesdays with morrie, i have Sundays with Ama Turing, too.  Best days of my life was hearing the stories no one can have the conviction to share as much as my Ama Turing did.

Visit www.repertory-philippines.com for more information.