The Choice

“Choose not to choose for the sake of fairness.”  That’s exactly what my heart tells me.  It’s not wise after all. Silence doesn’t always have to mean yes, sometimes it’s a subtle way of saying no.  Staying away has to mean ending up, it sometimes marks a fresh start.  Tears, at times, don’t mean cowardice; sometimes… it has to do with coping and a new sense of courage. 

For both choices won’t give me any dose of relief, happiness, freedom, security, and love.  Both choices failed in me a hundred times and more.  What’s the use of choosing and fighting for people not deserving of your life, love and commitment.  For any of those choices doesn’t even have the full courage to fight nor the most convincing answers at hand. 

I chose not to choose; I chose to set them both free… it’s not helping if I manage to keep one of them… for any reason at all. 

For both is not assessed on equal footing.  The one I would want to choose forever… never had the love to nurture the love that’s in me. 

If you just believed… and if you just fight for it… I could have chosen you…