Accept

The easy way to recover from failure is simply to accept the things that happened beyond your control and take the luggage and learn the hard-earned lessons.  You can no longer change what happened yesterday and whether you like it or not, it will be part of who you are now.  As to how it will going to affect you will determine your choices today and in the future.  Choose whether to have it affect you positively or negatively or whether it will make you wise and matured.  I’m a grown-up now and I should be responsible to every action and decision I make and the people I deal with.  I’ve been for quite some time been in danger because of trusting someone… even friends.  I always put my heart into every soul I met. 

I seldom share bits and pieces of my life.  And it hurts me more that “friends” never consider the value attached to it, they’ll just gonna share it to anyone without my consent as if it wasn’t important and private to me… yet, I call them friends… <sigh> 

That’s life.. you win some… you lose some..

End of May

I’m looking forward to the upcoming project sign-offs.  I can now imagine, a flag being raised at my desk signalling a time-out from work.  Woohoo!!! I envy Lakwatsero, Mayo and De Juice as they already had their rounds of island-hopping… in most places I’ve never been.  I’m eyeing end of May to go somewhere… excited to welcome 2008 rainy season while dancing in the rain and singing "Sukob Na!"   

I assure myself that it would be one relaxing moment before the take-off

Go Places

"The glory of the world is transitory, and we cannot measure our lives by it, only by the decision we make to follow our personal legend, to believe in our utopias, and to fight for them.  Each of us is the protagonist of our own life, and often it is the anonymous heroes who leave the most enduring marks."

- p.127, Like the Flowing River - Paulo Coehlo

I just had one troubled week that had made me travel to Manila-Tuguegarao and back to Manila without sleeping, as if I was just travelling to Divisoria alone. So troubled that I almost lost my senses and detached from the usual errands… and almost gave up my work.  Glad that I have friends who may have not known the full details but still manage to respect and deal with my silence.
Yesterday before lunch, I was still lying in bed, not bothered at all to go to work.  I tried keeping in touch with my group to check whether everything is in progress.  I’ve been receiving several texts that need careful attention and quick response.  Then I thought, my work is to make things done… and not to halt.  I started to think of considering other options.  It gives me hope and a brighter perspective.  I got up quickly, smiled and felt so excited that I feel renewed.  I cannot just quit easily for it would just create a domino effect… I have to be fully accountable to myself, my work and all the people and things that depend on my sanity and productivity.
I started getting in touch with friends who have been convincing me before to work or study abroad.  I am considering UK, Qatar, New Zealand, Singapore, Dubai, etc. again. 
I cannot afford to disappoint myself from not being productive.  Anyone who knows me from the time I was at kindergarten believes that I wouldn’t be a "trash"… even Mdme. Rodil once exclaimed… "sheggz will go places.."

They saw something in me that I couldn’t afford not to achieve. Go Go Go!!

AJA is Back!

Kim Jeung Eun is back!  Making me so excited to tune in to ABS-CBN every 10:30-11:00pm from Mondays-Thursdays.  The nights were never been this happier!  Old friends know just how I’ve been a fan of Vivian Kang of Lovers in Paris.  It was when I’ve come to love that personality of being "Timang!" Shall I say, that’s the only time I’ve been reassured that my personality is not extraordinary, it’s seemingly Timang!  I look up to her as the reigning "Queen of all Timangs!" Aja!  I simply adore that seemingly carefree personality… uncomplicated!

I missed seeing Martin and Carlo but last night’s episode made me appreciate Jared.  I was watching alone in the conference room at the office and I was just like "giggling over" the budding romance between Jarred and Doc Jackie.  
Haba ng hair mo, Doc Jackie!   Challenge sa yo kung paano mo mapapaibig yang si Jarred na napaka-stiff hehehe … one Big Aja!