I didn’t know how

I got this message from Epey.  You hit it right once again, huh?!  While on my way back to Manila, I was thinking of "things".  I learned to erase for awhile what I’ve been thinking and those that I intend to save, but my heart and mind are constantly debating. I want to save something but I know it will never be whole again… and honestly, I dunno how to start it off.  In the end, I agreed at saying "Move on, Sheggz.  Let them live the life they want to be.  You enjoy the life as real as possible… carefree."

It hurts when you lose something very important to you.
It also hurts when you lose it unknowingly.
It hurts most when you wanted to save it…
but you didn’t know how…

Hoping when you read this, you’ll know basically that the message is yours.  And you’ll understand that even without spilling it out, I need not to save anything… for everyone’s peace of mind… for yours and mine..  It might appear unbelievable but I’d learn to love the happiness I’m having now… uncomplicated.
Think as if I just disappeared in your lives.  We’ll carry it on… 

Heart of the Ocean

My supposed-to-be Coron, Palawan travel last weekend was postponed due to my Mom’s text invite.  "Punta tayo ng Anilao!"  So I decided to join her and her friends at Anilao, Batangas last Friday.   Though totally outnumbered by the oldies, I never expected I’d enjoy that vacation that much.  This is one good chance that I get to see Tagaytay again, the fog, the cool breeze and the relaxing view.  While they were chatting, I have a separate world running around me with my headset on and country music was there to serenade my soul.  I loved the zigzag road of Lemery, Batangas.  We passed by the Fantasy Island, too.  There I saw a sign-board "Heart of the Ocean" beach.  Ohh… we’re going to the Heart of the Ocean, huh?! Cool!  
We were starting to get wet when lightning strikes and lights went off.  We literally had a candlelit dinner at the cottage.  Thanks to Mang Ver for cooking that sumptuous "Sinigang na Blue Marlin", it made me forget I was having my diet.
When dinner was over, I’d almost lost hope that I’d enjoy the rest of the night, had it not for Kiray, the 3-year old girl, with whom I constantly mess around hehehe. We played at the seashore putting all those dark sand all over.  The tight hug of that lil girl made me confess to my Mom, "gusto ko talaga ng baby girl."  I love it when I became a Mom of Kiray in just 2 days *wink!*
I asked my Mom, "Kala ko white sand? Tsaka akala ko Anilao?  Bakit Lemery?  Bakit hindi white sand?"  It took us an hour at most to travel to Anilao by boat.  We crossed 2-3 islands just to reach there… and wooohoo!!! white sand nga! There I enjoyed swimming with my life vest, the mask and the snorkel and the very helpful aqua shoes hahahaha… I was able to witness the death of the sea urchin…
What I enjoyed the most was the serenity that boat-ride brought me and seeing my Mom happy that we were together in one great weekend escapade… and meeting Kiray and her Lola Pin, Ate Precy and Kuya Roger… Thanks for making my Mom happy as well. Next year again!    
End of May, Coron!!!!

Fix :)

Finally, we gave in to Mae’s long overdue make-over request.  They say, when someone had a drastic change in aura, they’re into emotional distress or feeling something disastrous.  In our case, yes, it is!  And the desire to have that change is a unanimous decision harharharhar!  My friends knew just how I’ve been so lax at haircare that’s why everyday is a bad hair day and ponytail has always been my saving grace.  My first haircomb for the day would always be the last hehehe. 
I’ve been constantly bugging Mae and Shem to have my hair cut at whatever cut that fits.  I just want to look different. And Mae answered, "O girl, you need a surgery if that’s what you want! Hahahaha". 
But I am happier to see my eyelashes curled harharharhar
Thanks, Mae for making us look "new OJTs" at work hehehe

The 3 Ls

I told myself, never to fall again for someone who just keeps me hanging and waiting.  A big no-no noh?! That’s an aftershock of my 5-year waiting with *****.  5 long years that we weren’t sure whether or not there’s something or there was none at all or we’re just assuming that there is and no one dared to break the silence.  And when the time comes that one of us had nothing left but to “face the awkward” stage of bringing it up, the 5-years of agony ended up in a wink and we could have been happier if we have it earlier that complications are not yet part of us.  If there’s one thing I constantly pray, that is not to suffer that same fate again… not that era again.  It made me happier and it made me different but it was the truest feelings that I reckon that I had to give up.  And it’s not easy to give up something that is the only reason of my being happy and fulfilled.  In short, I wouldn’t wait for you…  Love, live and let go.

Love has many faces

When true love comes, it can definitely wait for the right time to have that love be professed… when both are ready and convinced that it’s destiny that brought them there… 

Still I was touched by “Sometimes Love Has Many Faces”… at times, people have to wear masks to cover their weaknesses and only true love can uncover it…

Anne:  What happens in Boracay… stays in Boracay…
Dimples: Not all the time